Abstract Guppy

Guessing with a closed mind

2011-11-18T13:27:00.000-08:00

On a friday night
a perfect time to kill the time
city lights and chocolate bars
dusty streets and taxi cars

came from place
of peace and joy
that sure seems coy
but never the less, things are strange

Always had a happy life
swinging my life on a tree
tickly feet, an imaginary dream
get the feeling of being free

I killed myself, bomb the place
I destroyed myself into little bits
Acting it out, a sweet escape
dropping my heart oh my heart

A little ghost pinched me
pointing myself in the mirror
it's all my fault, oh my fault

Never meant to brake your heart
deep down I know
And I learned a new lesson

Never look at the mirror
never take a sample
look at yourself and see
you are not wrong
no, you're not

keep the heart pure,
never ever them get, into you

2011-11-12T12:37:00.000-08:00

wait..I know this feeling. Oh shizzz.. I think it's jealousy

2011-10-25T11:59:00.000-07:00

GUE ORANG PALING KURANG NGAJAR DI DUNIA

Sadarkah kau?

2011-10-25T11:05:00.000-07:00

Seandainya kamu tahu perasaanku,
diriku terpencil di ujung jembatan
Menunggu dirimu menyelamatkan diriku
Aku tak akan lupakan rasa ini

Disaat itu kau tersenyum
memangku sekawan baik
diriku tersiksa salam senyuman
mataku tertusuk kegelapan

Apa kau tau rasa di hatiku ini?
seindah warna pelangi di taman benua
Rasanyaku, menyerasah saja
melepaskan semua sejarah, antara kau dan aku

diriku tak mengerti semua perilakumu
sadarkah kau? aku cinta padamu
Perasaanku tak akan tergambar dalam kata-kata
mulutku tercubit kunci

Tak akan dan tak pernah ku rasakan getaran ini
yang menghantui hatiku dan apa kau mengerti?
sadarkah dirimu, bahwa aku cinta padamu
Tak tau arti baik dan buruk

Memilih keputusan adalah mustahil
diriku paling tertusuk saat kau bersamanya
tak akan aku bisa tahan rasa sakit
yang memeluk situasi

setiap malam aku bermimpi
setiap malam aku bermimpi
bermimpi, kau menjadi miliku
sadarkah?

(zzz so crappy)

THANK GOD I'M (still) YOUNG

2011-09-17T07:54:00.000-07:00

dangdut is the mushik of maii countryyy, my kauntrii ooh my kauntrii

somewhere between Jessie J, Cleopatra and Chibi Maroko-chan

2011-08-24T09:57:00.000-07:00

dude..
it's August, the moth of my Country's Independence day. And I'm so late just for blogging about this, but I want to wish Indonesia to have an awesome future, to rock the world with everything we've got! MERDEKA! 17.08.1945 :)

so, moving on the bad news. I had my hair cut off. Yesterday,actually hahha. I look somewhere between Jessie J, Cleopatra and Chibi Maroko-Chan -if you ever heard about it, Chibi Maroko-Chan is an Anime, really cute, I used to watched it with my sister when I was still in grade 1 hahaha-.
It looks really weird. I thought it would like nice on me, but God knows me well, and I know it looks weird. I wanted to have a new style on my head. Not just typical girl with long hair. I think this should gain me confidence? since all this time, I thought my hair was the best thing about me. Now I look like a roadkill.

Last night my dad and I went to a salon, which was the most HYPED salon in my area. It really did look nice, I'm not bragging but, if it was the most hyped salon in the area, and Dokki is big (I think) than THE SALON SHOULD GIVE ME A FANTASTIC RESULT! truth be told, they didn't. CRAP CRAP CRAP. And the only person to blame is.. yes, Myself. rrgghhh! this feels so wrong, besides the feeling of a "light head", it makes my body look big :(( sooo not proportional!!! im just wondering what my friends would say . "waaaa pinkaannnm it looks soo nice!!" but in their minds "HAHAHAHAA, pinkan, you look like Dora" -_-

okay.. back to the confidence part. We'll see how they react, I should always be happy about how I look. ( - my BIG thighs)( HA-HA... -_- )
wish me luck, I think it's going to be a rough week. Punk this HAIR !!

Bebek Mati

2011-08-14T10:06:00.000-07:00

"guys, if I'm not blogging , that means I don't have anything nice to say or I have no time at all."

"WHO CARES?"

p : kacamatanya udah d betulin belom?

b : (silence) ........... Gotdeeemmmmm.... got deemmmm

p : (leaving)

(awkward face)

Change

2011-08-01T13:11:00.000-07:00

skrng gue udah 1 SMA. Gue sadar, ada sesuatu d diri gue yg berubah. Apa gue mulai jadi dewasa? soalnya pertama. Tulisan gue tiba tiba jadi rapih gini, gue gak tau juga :)) skrng gue lagi bikin Tugas Sosiologi dan PR pertama di SMA hahaha, dan tulisannya gue tiba tiba jadi rapih dan bnr bnr, kayak anak aliim abiss.. kaget gua :)) hahhaaha, hhmm, skrng gue udah 1 SMA. Saatnya gue harus jadi disiplin sama waktu dan perilaku gue. One thing I learned is ...

I HAVE TO LIMIT MY TOLERANCE.
i keep on finding people who annoy me, and they are sort of taking advantage in that, I could say "Patients" and "Kindness" in me, that always forgives them. And i think they think that, I would just forgive them in any circumstances. Well no. Sorry little kid. But I had enough of you. finally.

Materialistic Me

2011-07-27T11:17:00.000-07:00

"Yes Madame can I help you?"

"Yes, I would like to haveee..............."

1 Casio Baby-G 5602-9 Yellow.

a pair of Nike Whites

and a Sony Nex-3 please

thank youuuu

*LANGSUNG BERDOA*

Masih anak sekolah, Satu SMA

2011-07-26T14:07:00.000-07:00

huaa, second day of school here haha, too late :p
sorri gue lupa ngepost dsini, (like you care) hahaha, hari pertama pake rok SMA bener bener exciting bgt, tapi, I try not to control my excitement cuz who knew that that first day was just an ordinary day at school? haha, but it's fine, I got my hopes low when the bell rang :p

Jadi skrng SIC lagi bener bener S-I-B-U-K banget. Ada paskib, 3 latihan nari -.- omegeee, nnti mau ada piano, sama les bahasa arab lgi, but I like this. I'd rather be busy then having nothing to do all the time -.- so i'll get used to "how to manage my time" hahaha, cieelaahhh, sok sok dewasa gua :))

tell ya about more latter ;)
ooh yeah!
I'd really like to show off my new CD's ! haha a RAN CD "HOP3" and Raisa :3 and guess what? both of them are SIGNED !! MUAHHAHAHAHA, actually all of my RAN CD's are signed by Rayi, Asta, and Nino :) and Raisa as well haha, well, I happen to have a friend who go to the same campus with them, so, I can get their CD and autograph in no time, thanks ya Kak Angie ;)

night guppies!

Ketek Asem

2011-07-24T10:56:00.000-07:00

Heyyhooo, today's last day of HOLIDAYS! and tomorrow's first day of school :') sooooo excited, I'm just so shocked right now. High school? You KIDDING ME ???? whiii, :)

today I spent the day with friends watching Harry Potter : The Deathly Hollows part 2. (TWICE) today! Oh yeah! we had great seats, (again) hahaha, can't believe it's finally over. I cried the first time I watched it. I just can't believe Severus Snape, loved Lilly that much and he does too Harry to :') call me emotional, but it's just sweet, sampe mati pun masih cinta sama Lilly :') "..... You have her eyes (mati)" :') ergghhh, heart touching hahahha

and after that I went ice skating at Genena Mall, with Rayhan, Cheka and Ahmad :) had lots of fun, even though I got SERIOUSLY INJURED. Broke my left leg and my left hand. So now I can't move. :( I never knew how painful it could be :\ sakit bangettt :(. But I'm fine. HAHAHA. Just kidding, just trying boost up your heart =)) HAHA

But yeah, I got a little scratch at my left palm. it's like the scare at Harry's Forehead !! exactly o.o like a thunder HAHAHAHAAHA epicness :)

btw. Harry's son had the same hairstyle like justin bieber -.-

and I had to walk all the way from the Metro station to my house. So there you have it.

KETEK ASEM!

night guppies ^^

My High School Musical

2011-07-23T11:08:00.001-07:00

wiiiii school starts at 25th SOO EXCITED! :D

Blowing my (invisible) 14 birthday candles

2011-07-23T11:06:00.000-07:00

I well, yes, today is my B'day, and so glaaddd cuz Today I had fun with friends and family :) I went to school to help decorate the school for Ramadhan and had lotsss of fun. I also had Paskibra practice in the morning at 7 am. hahaha "7 am waking up in the morning.. blaa blaa blaa" you knowww what it iss~ :)) hahaha, yeah soo, had tons of FUN todayyy :) I can truly feel close bonds :) and I was soooo happy when they sang Happy birthday to me at the bus on the way back to school after Paskibra practice. I swear, I felt sooooo happy. :) hahaha,

Hey pinkan, why are you blowing your invisible candles?
well, cuz I didn't have a cake sliced today. But it's okay. A birthday is not about cakes, presents and all. But it's about having the acknowledgement to be mature, smarter, wise and to become a good teenager at this stage. even though I wanted to have cake -.- HAHAHAHA
through the years I was in mud and at times when I feel having a suicide. I had soo many problems, starting with a person who made me change. Into something different. Dont know to something good or not. See yourself. I'm still in progress. I'm still learning. I'm a freakin teenager. Just because I'm not 13 anymore, doesn't mean that I'm completely mature. NO NO NO. hahaha bigg NO. I'm still a little foolish child. Who just wants to have Fun. But learning to put them at the right time and place.

I can still remember that time when I turned 13, which was last year. I was like "waa waa waaa, im a teenager! I can do what ever I want. hhmmm?? would I get hurt??? will have fun??? will I suck at school?" And now they're all answered. I can't believe how time flies so quickly. Talking about quickly, I would really have some -.-
this here ---> is called quickly, my fav is TARO!

( link here!)

:3 wiiii

back to my story. Sooooo

had Fun, and even though in the morning, I swear I wanted to faint cuz of HOW TIRING IT IS! gosh... I was sooo weak. I just felt like dropping, and the worst thing is it was freakinnn HOT!! goshhh I was at the SUN ALL THE TIME. What a FANTASTIC opening of 14 -.-

As a closing, I want to thank God, for blessing me with so many wonderful things in my life. Now that I'm 14, I still want to be closer to You. Pull me closer to You. Teach me how to be a mature young lad. You've protected me on the first second and forever. Yesterday, Today and forever :) Oh Jesus, Your Awesomeness, is limited edition that's always available :')

still cant believe how time flies so quickly, well I guess it's a good thing. That means I've been enjoying my blessed life ever since Chicago, USA 23 July 1997

night peeps. :')

2011-07-16T13:10:00.000-07:00

it's okay, if you're really it.......you are IT

Quote of the week!

2011-07-13T10:53:00.000-07:00

"all you are is mean... and a LIER! and PATHETIC!AND A LONELY LIFE and mean." mean - T. Swift

i would scream out these words at house with all my heart, phugg yaaa!! okay that was inappropriate :))

A fighting Ship, not fish

2011-07-13T10:40:00.000-07:00

me and my school had a little field trip to this really cool fighting ship! awesome right?? and this is 100% Indonesia's, but under the eyes of the UN, The United Nations. And this ship is for peace making ONLY. So when there's a huge fight two countries or more, this ship will make them realize and make .. yeah.. peace. This ship is known you know? in Russia, America and lots more hahah. I'm not making these things up you know.. it's real! hahaha, soo anyways, this ship is called .... FRANS KAISIEPO, under the name of a Captain from Papua :D oh yeah! this ship is also known for the good quality of the sailors (?) well, the really, muscular guys who work for the country there hahaha, and the good equipped weapons they have khihihi. They even took us to the super secret room where, they control the missiles, booms, how they can see the "bad" guys far awayy, uber coolness, but.. they shut down all the computer, soo we couldnt really see the "Mission impossible" scenes =,=

they had all sorts of weapons on the ship. But the guide wont show us, but he said that yes.. this place is armed with weapons.. in my mind I was like.. "AWESOME!! ^^"

this is one of the toilets inside the ship.. believe it or not, it looks like a toilet on a plane hahaha

this is Frans Kaiseipo----^

this is just one from 4 other fighting ships owned by Indonesia ;)

this is a place where they handle all the electricity inside this ship. They have generators on the lower deck. And guess what? too keep them entertained................. they have a PS 3 ! awesome right? hahaha

this is over here.. is the .. ummm.. the thing that shoots heavy metal balls at naughty ships :))

honestly, this looks like that thing in a mario sunshine hame hahahha

this is the controller rooom, in case you havent noticed, I LOVE PRESSING BUTTONS :D especially RED ones :D

soo.. yeah, that's just one from the things I had in summer, I'm gonna post more latter ;)

twitter murderer

2011-07-12T09:55:00.000-07:00

hey there, my twitter account just got hacked. fantastic. I wish that BASTARD all the misery in the world.

2011-06-14T15:02:00.000-07:00

LOOKING FOR D-I-Yers, if you like to do some DIYing, comment in this post and put your link and I'll surely do it, and I'll also give you some of DIY things that i made this summerr, and if you have a friend who does, tell me!!
anything, from ..necklaces, bracelets, dyed T's what everr, put your link kayy ? :) and give me some suggestions on what to do this summer,, im so clueless thnkss

Polusi Otak

2011-06-14T14:40:00.000-07:00

well, i know that no body reads this blog and just stops by, just to ctrl C and then ctrl P here, a.k.a Copy Paste. But for you who is reading this, I'm so bored right now. I have no idea what to do, or what to do first, I have to wait for my other friends to finish their end of year exams an then it's WIIIIII time.

Just wanna share something to you whom I dont know, I'm going through really annoying situations, as always, involves with friendship, a whole lot of shit and crap, "feelings" (even that made me think that I'm sort of psychologist that is trying to explain "Your Life ...SUCKS!" to a patient) and... well all those things when a teenager is going through puberty. I think puberty is some sort of lemon that is trying to spice up the life, but is actually pretty bitter. Talking about bitter, I tried some of my dad's cigarette, it tasted something like coffee? and chocolate haha, I finally tried smoking :) it was kinda a relief that I finally smoked, cuz it really let out the stress ya know.. NOOO NOOOO i'M just kidding ya, noo i dont smoke hahahaha, and I dont shisha, I dont do drugs :))

"You get younger when you smoke" BULLSHARK! it's only gonna make your life short, that doesnt mean young you dumbbutt.

soo, DONT SMOKE OKAYY!! :D it's not good for you r ANYTHING! apa lagi kalo lo masih muda, jangan yeee.. takutnyaaa.. nti kamu sakit dan sampe anak kamu pas bayi juga ngerokok.. soo dont okaayy :)

SPREAD THE NEWS! okay.. i just went out of topic

hhmm.. now it's June, we're at the middle of the year already .. hhmm that fast. I'm gonna tell ya guys what happened these previous months okay? ;) I haven't really updated to you who dont care hahaha see ya latter, me gonna update you fools, on movies.. FOOD!, me wishlists.. new interests, and more. LATTER, now? I gotta watch a movie with my bestiieee, POPCORN! see yaa.. never :)) husshh!! "neverr sayy neverr" randommm-

LULUS ! 04-06-2011

2011-06-04T13:00:00.000-07:00

asooyy menn.. gue akhirnya LULUS SMP ! dengan nilai yang cukup memuaskan dan gue dapet nilai taget gue :)
Thanks Jesus, You're just so AWESOME :)
gue skng belom saah anak SMA karena belom dapet Ijazah SMP, tapi gue udah cukup seneng dapet surat dri skolah kalo gue LULUS UN SMP. Gue gak bisa lebih seneng lagi skng hehe.. udah susah cape belajar tiap hari, gak ada satu hari tapa megang buku d tangan gue hahaha.. malah sampe gue sering banget gak makan, which is stupid cuz I needed food for my body, TO STUDY. But not anymore dudes.. gue skrng lagi libur, enjoying it but still having those boring moments, when you have a lot of things to do, and cant figure out which one to start first hahaa. But I am happy :) I'm officially free. Can't wait to wear that grey skirt hehe. just like any other student who is EXCITED for HIGH SCHOOL BABYYYY~~ i can finally sing high school musical songs, just for the fun of it. hahaha. people say everything starts at HIGH SCHOOL, I wonder how my high school years will be? This could be the beginning, or the sequel of my AWESOME LIFE ! and I hope it wont be something negative, but positive, i hope that it will give me strength and make me learn more about life and all those mature adult crappy stuff hahaha.. I hope that I could do better in my studies and be a better person when I leave the world of uniforms and go to college.. latter. haha NOW? .. I'm simply in.. peace :)

link of picture here!

ps. I really did threw my junior high school graduation hat, it was HECK OF FUN!

just saying .. hahaha

2011-05-28T15:13:00.000-07:00

Penyesalan ini sangat menyakitkan, sampe gue nangis. Semua kenangan itu hanya ada di ingatan gue doang, dan gak bisa gue cetak. Sometimes we have to lose some, to learn something. Even if it really hurts. I suer, I am so sorry..

Yes, You can hug me :)

2011-05-24T08:11:00.000-07:00

Yeah, I've been listening to this song lately .. Beast - Should I Hug or Not, it's a really catchy song, sound just like an Indonesian Grup band called RAN.. the beat, the effects just like RAN haha, but I still enjoyed though ehehe and I reallyyyy like the cover album...

i like pictures like this. Without the black outline, really cute ^^

Oh yeah, recently found this perfect lyric from Alicia Keys - You don't know my name

Baby, baby, baby
From the day I saw you
I really really want to catch your eye
There's something special 'bout you
I must really like you
Cause not a lotta guys are worth my time
Ooo baby, baby, baby
It's gettin kind of crazy
Cause you are takin over my mind
And it feels like oooooo
But you don't know my name
And I swear it feels like ooooo ooooo ooooo ooooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)

and this is what I usually sing at the showers :)) sometimes I even get chocked LOL

Studdy Neckly

2011-05-24T03:15:00.000-07:00

Heyhoo, few days ago I made this D-I-Y Necklace only by using :
- Studs
- 2 pieces of materials
- Small Plastic Flowers
- A zipper :D
- A small piece of carton
- andd... GLUE and S ! the best thing ever if you're doing D-I-Y stuff hahaa

I think this necklace turned out great, and u guys cud do something like this, cuz it's

LOT'S OF FUN! hahaha, yu guys could put your creativity on your work :)

RAD

2011-05-20T12:56:00.000-07:00

hey there hey there, yesterday was GRADUATION DAY! even though I'm not officially graduated from junior highs school, I had the event yesterday for all of us. I was so glad that the show went well, even though we could've done better :) I performed an Indonesian Dance called " Jaipong " (Jaipong Aduh Manis) and an Egyptian Dance haha, that was a heck of fun! And I had the chance to wear that "High school musical graduation gowns" hahaha, with the black hats and stuff, ooh yeah ! a big shout out for me brotherrr, mas Ardoo, (@masardo) who just graduate from his second scholar taking Faculty Theology at Malang !hehe

and also that day was the farewell day of The Indonesian Ambassador in Cairo :(
He was a great leader, so my dad told me. He makes awesome speechless, and they're all spontaneous once right ?! AWESOME. I love it when he goes to the stage and opens his mouth not to bite, but to inspire all the listeners, it must be great having a boss like him. Even for me as lil student right at the bottom of the food chain I personally felt his care for my school, The Indonesian School in Cairo :) he had many dreams that we all should achieve as a school, as a family :) That very day, I saw Pak Fachir's wife, Bu Yasmin, cry when we wanted to take pictures at the end of the show :(. I suer, I wanted to hug her, but I thought it was a bit informal since, I was dealing with the WIFE OF THE AMBASSADOR, I shouldn't be kidding around. HAHAHA, Due to that, I felt her sadness.

After that, we all, the national exam student's threw our black graduation hats in the hair with laughter :)

After the event I went to the artcy shop to buy some things for my D-I-Y necklace and painting that I'm going to do latter on. :)

So after the partay, ofcourse ! we all had the after partay haha, We had it at Elena's house. Went to Mcd late at night for dinner, had great time there. And after that we all watched Jackass, which was rad hahaha, nothing more disgusting as that yyyiiiiuuueekkk!! stupid people end up there ckckck...
afterrr thattt, since elena's house is just 4 floors above me.. my Friend mba Fadhila HAD A SLEEP OVER WITH ME AND MY SISTER ! yey, lots and lots of fun! haha

We watched " A Crazy Little Thing Called Love " a Thai movie :) at..... 3 AM. hahaha, it was like a real "Like A G6" videoclip :P but I only wacthed 1/4 of it, cuz I fell a sleep in the middle of the movie hahaha. We were accompanied with salted homemade popcorn :D

woke up. at 10 hahaha. \m/

What we did yesterday:
- 12 pm - 11 am = Asleep (Wendsday - Thursday)
- 12 pm - 04 pm = GRADUATION DAY & FAREWELL PARTY (Thursday)
- 04 pm - 05 pm = Buying Artcy stuff (Thursday)
- 05 pm - 06 pm = Chillin' at school (Thursday)
- 06 pm - 09 pm = Elena's House (Thursday)
- 09 pm - 11 pm = Mcd (Thursday)
- 12 pm - 02 am = Jackass (Friday)
- 03 am - 04 am= A crazy little thing called love part 1(Friday)

yeahh... that day made me hungover

Allergic

2011-05-18T13:42:00.000-07:00

I have 7 Allergies:
- Sea Food (except: squid and shrimp)
- Dust
- Hot weather
- Cats
- Nuts
- Certain clothing material
- Unknown LOL
hahaha

The number 13

2011-05-18T12:21:00.000-07:00

Was there one time, when you were craving for an answer and out of the sudden, that answer came without you even knowing it was coming? yeah, I just had a few.. minutes ago hahaha, So I was just chillin in my couch watching unfabulos,and as usual she sings a short song about the episode it was about how she was going to fast with she dating Jake, and well it's exactlyyy the same situation as mine, but.. well same concept haha, soo the main point was she wasn't ready for "love" she was going to fast, sooo in her song she said...

"I'm still 13, I'm not gonna worry about love, I'm not gonna worry about love"

it's going to come by itself , I shouldn't stress it, and a looooot of people have been saying that to mii hahha, and after all that hard work, now I understand. Sorta.. hahah wow.. that was a bad ending :\

2011-05-18T12:14:00.000-07:00

A (not so) happy ending

saying bad words to me wont do any good. I know you now. Thanks.

source: here

GOSICK!

2011-05-11T08:57:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, Pinkan again. Just wanna update on what's been going on. So, my recent crush is OUT yeah.. it's that easy for me to just forget and be normal, I used to like him but, what ever. I can't force anyboy right ;) haha

soo, life goes on. Even though it gives me a hint of a smile on my face, I still now, that someday, somebody eventually comes to me and be the one. I may not know him now, or do I? o.o i don't know.. who knows. What ever. I call all of my crushes, food. Because that's all that they'll be. I know them, get interested, and just.. through it away, because I know it wouldn't last.

REWIND TO THE FIRST TIME, WHEN I FELT IT COMING. I KNEW THIS WOULD NOT LAST. -paramore

That little of the "rewind" song from paramore, is the ultimate song for every single crush I had. It's alwayssss like that. I always feel that this is just going to last for 2 weeks, 2 months tops. And after that, I move on.
So now the real question is, love? big love? or HUGE love?

answer : love
actually, it's been less than love. and beeep.. what is that? a simple little middle school crush. Well this year, I'll be in Highschool (wohooo) but, I might think about what happened to me when I was in the middle school, I don't know, it makes me giggle how stupid I was, for crushing the wrong guy, and learning from my mistakes. I always thank God for my mistakes, especially when it involves, love life --> crush life. haha
But, I always look at the people (couples) they seem soo happy at one time, and can break up in a single snap. PS. I HATE LDR'S a.k.a Long Distance Relationships -__- they bug me.. a lot.

The only thing that probably hurts between couples, are when they are probably apart :/ dude.. that SUCKS!
apa lagii kalo harapan gua jauuhhhhhh, dari kenyataan :/ okay.. mungkin gue bisa salting salting, cuma.. kalo dia bukan jodoh gue, dan dia gak "suka" sama gue.. ngapaiin gue suka dia balik? Why would I love someone who wont even love me back? HAHA! a BIG slap to those of you who are no where to be found .. weird.

anyways, that's my curcol for todayy, and maybe I'll tell you guys more about my holidays, which is like .. right now. Now I'm just chillin, and doing a lot of work! hehe, yeyy I have work to do (Watching) naa naaa, it's not just that :p

OH YEAH ! you guys should realllyy watch this anim, (for those you animers) GOSICK! it's this awesome anim, I really recommend you to see it ;)
here's the link, to watch the episodes d^^b

(I got the Description from Anime Avenue)

Description: GOSICK takes place in 1924 in a small, made-up European country of Sauville. The story centers on Kazuya Kujo, the third son of a Japanese Imperial soldier, who is a transfer student to St. Marguerite Academy, where urban legends and horror stories are all the rage. There he meets Victorique, a mysterious yet beautiful and brilliant girl who never comes to class and spends her days reading the entire content of the library or solving mysteries that even detectives can’t solve.

Blisters in Israel

2011-05-03T15:50:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps,
from the text above you can guess that, I'm going to... ISRAEL ! wohoo, I'm going to go to Jerusalem and Taba, and the Israeli-an border wohoooo, hahhaa, this is going to be EPIC! can't believe I'm going there wohoo, but, that's the "Israel" part.. for the "blisters" yeah.. I've been going to the skin docter and he said that, I have this allergy, that is cause by the change of weather. Cuz now in Egypt, is hot, but sometimes, it's cold -__-
bagi gue itu namanya, musim labil. Gak konstan haha

So, now, I'm putting on some special cream for my skin cuz it's really sensitive he says. I already have a lot of allergies since i was small. I couldn't eat fish, and many kinds of sea food.

Oh yeah, for summer, I might join piano lessons and might buy a new keyboard for meehh wohooo, total SCORE!, I've always wanted to play the piano hehe. But, legend tells that I used to have piano lessons when I was in the 1st grade. But stopped, cuz, I'd rather watch disney channel than having piano lessons-__- bummer.

So, now I'm looking for a new keyboard for me to play at home. I still have to register to take the lesson in the Russian Culture here in Cairo. I still don't know where, when and how to register hahaha, but I'll try to get lots of information ASAP.

ooh yeah, where's going to go to Taba on thursdayy, which is.. tomorroww, cuz now it's 1 in the morning, TOMORROW OMG CAN'T WAIITTT :D
gonna start packing tonight.. haha,

ooh yeah, here are some things that I might bring for the trip, and for those of you who are going to TABA TOO !
- SUN BLOCK
- Bathroom stuff (Shampoo,Soap, tooth brush, tooth paste etc.)
- Undies
- Pants ( Short, jeans, black)
- Tops (8)
- towel
- hair dryer
- Shoes (Converse, flip flops)
- CREAM!
- Camera
- some music (shuffle)
- internet keyboard (laptop)
- a book to read otw
- shades (to feel cool, literally hahaha)
- FOOD
- GUM
- Hair brush
- an extra LARGE bag, and a small bag (To carry little goods haha)
- a bottle of water
- Chargerrrrr
- Hat
- Scrunchies
- MY PRECIOUS BLACKBERRY

well, f.y.i, now it's 1 :40 in the morning, cairo time, and tomorrow gotta join PE class with my school, just for fun hehee, so gotta go to sleep and see you next time when I'm back from ISRAEL, geezz, this is something that I'm going to tell my kids one dayy haha

that's Taba

source here!

hehe, I see this a lot here in Egypt :p

source here!

and that's .... ISRAEL ! wohoo

this is a once in a life time experience.

stay cool, get smart, be abstract
xoxo
GBU

Out the Balcony.

2011-04-30T16:29:00.000-07:00

This is what I see, everyy time I go out the balcony:

dear Cairo :)

Finally Done.

2011-04-30T15:56:00.000-07:00

Hey bloggers, SOoooo, I'm finally done,
man I miss, blogging, I had to study for UN, but no nooo, I'M DONE ! I didn't have time to actually dare to blog about UN, But I finished it, and it all went well, Bahasa Indonesia, Math, English and the final goal was Science. It all went well, thank God it did :)

So, two days ago, was my last day wearing my dear blue junior highschool uniform skirt :')
I have a great bond with it. I wore it every single day in my junior high school times. My crys and my smiles hehe..

But now, I have to move on to another class. A much more complicated class. A place where I had to really be mature and think about my future, cuz 2 more years after that.. I'm gonna be in college.. weird huh? 1 SMA. Is hopefully gonna rock! Sharing that with a dear friend of mine Gilang. And he's the only class mate haha, so we were the only once you had the SMP UN, on the 25th of April all to the 28th of April. I had lots of fun :)

The last seconds before UN was.. sorta... hhmm.. not much really. I was quiet clam. Wasn't really scared, but had chills haha. It was first UN, what can I do about it? hehe, yeah, First UN was Bahasa Indonesia. It wasn't that hard though. The next morning, it was cruel hearted MATH, but that came out well too. I was calm and went to all the question carefully, even though there were some questions without the answers -__- . The next day was... ENGLISH, that wasn't hard either. It felt like a normal test. The last of school and the last day of UN season, I had Science :) that wasn't that hard too, soo everything went well. I hope I could get a good score, and pass it ofcourse haha

Soo.. on the last day of UN and school, I literally JUMPED! going out the room, feeling happy that I have finished all my work, studied hard, and did my best, and .... HOLIDAY !! wohoooooo, I totally felt like a fresh noob, but anyways, that was another thing .. hehe "It was the best last day of school everrrrrr"

But, I just got an information, that the whole school, is going to decorate the school for the Indonesian Bazaar, and the SIC's Go Talent SHOW! wohoo WE HAD LOTS OF FUN! preparation lasted till 2 IN THE MORNING !, but still had lots of fun hehe. I was the head of the waitress-thingy. I had to manage all the food orders from the customers, and the "Back To Village Cafe" .

I had to be a waitress for a whole day, and wore a kebaya, an Indonesian type of dress hehe. It was fun, holding a pen and a little note, to put all the orders from the dear customers, even though some of them were kinda annoying =-=
I wasn't the only one though haha, some of my friends were also waitress and waiters haha, they said that their legs were hurting they were going up and down, to get the food, to order the food and at the same time, trying to please the customers -__- it was dang hard work. But what everr, this was our first time anywaysss hha
At that moment, I knew I didn't want to be a waitress again in my life -__-

but all in conclusion, everything went well, and it was our first time ever to have something like this .. i think haha,

here are some pics from UN to .. well here are some pics haha

this is a part of my history hehee

everything had been a blast, this whole experience, was epic, like really EPIC! and now I'm on my holidays, dats why, I'm blogging noww heheee, im gonna blog about the things i might do in the 3 MONTHS of HOLIDAYSSS WOHOOO

Buku Harian Cinta?

2011-03-30T13:47:00.000-07:00

yeyyyyy, I'm sooo sooo uber happy, cuz I can finally read Raditya Dika's Book, tittled "Marmut Merah Jambu". It's a really funny novel about his life, his love life when he was in junior highschool. I think I kinda felt, how he was when he had a crush, and things got complicated.. but in a different level, mine was.. in the stupid level, and his was in a .. stupid-er level (is that even a word?) well, anyways, I just started todayy and I can hopefully finish it this week. And if I do finish, it's going to be a new record for me to read the thickest book yet read. :D hehe, it has like 200+ pagess !yeyy (for me .. this is a lot) cuz I dont really read novels, i just.. read school books hahha Nayla

Oohh yeahh! Gue baru inget! ada alumni dari skolah gue yg dateng ke SIC beberapa hari yg lalu. Orangnya tuu kocak aja siii, baik gitu kleatannya. Dan gue dapet kesempatan tuk nanya" tentang kuliahnya gitu. Dia ngambil kedokteraann! keren banget gak sii? gue pengen banget ngambil kdokteran.. hehe nanya nnay deeh guee :p ggplaahh kesempatan emas kayak giniii, siapa yang mau lewatiin.. kayakk itu jadinya

back to topic

gue d kasih kayak souvenir gitu sama dia.. ooh iyaa, btw dia dari UGM Universitas Gajah Mada ! KEREN BANGET GAK SICHH?? well, mnrutu gue sii keren, scra.. gue orang jogja dan bangga menjadi orang jowo walaupun tidak bisa berbicara bahasa jawa... hhmmmm..

anws, gue d kasih pembatas buku dari diaa, pass bangeettt, bisa gue pake tuk baca buku ini deeh :p kereen lhoo ada kayak ukiran ukian wayang gituu super love it ehehe

sooo, gue skrng udah mau jadi anak SMA (suara tepuk tangan) haha, klo di liat liat .. perasahaan kok gue santai santai ajaa, buktinya.,. gue masih ngeblogger, sdngkan, masih ada anak UN yang "maaf yaa, gue bakal gak aktif fb bla bla bla blogspot bla bla bla twitter bla bla blaa gara" UN ini.. maaf yaa.." -.- kalo lo bener bener seriuss.. lo malah gak bakal nulis"begitoan -.-

back to topic..

yes, gue calon pengganti rok biru gue ke rok abu abu *mata berkaca kaca*
hhmm, I wonder how it feels like? haha, have to be a highschooler first laahhh haha peace out, :p

Get smart, stay cool, be abstract ;)

Neon-i-ish

2011-03-28T08:50:00.000-07:00

these are the things that I made by myself:

1. two bracelets ? not really bracelets, but, you put but them ..

on your wrist hahaha

it's made from two stretchy things that you usually use to clean up

baby bottles? but you can find these at art shops yeahh :D just..

grap 3 or 4 or any color you like, and just twist them according to the

diameter of you wrist, and just add beads and all thing you like ;)

be creative with it, and don't be afraid to wear it, well if you like it

anywayss :))

2. a ring ? made from a small hair tie and a guitar pick.

i just grap my pick and just glue the pick with the small hair tie with

super glue. But glue the hair tie on the back side of the pick, so that

you can have the front side .. at the front ? :)) well, i hope you get

my point. Just wait for a few seconds for the glue to dry. And there

you have it. A pick ring. And the good thing about this is you can

just use the pick to play the guitar, cuz the hair tie is flexible and

won't damage your fingers, while you're playing an awesome song you love ;)

I made this cuz, everytime I go, I'm like "mann, i wanna play

the guitar,but i dont have my pick with me -.- "

not anymore! i have this to put around my ring finger.

and i can just say "I'm married to the guitar :D " wkwkwk

Sweet Disposition

2011-03-28T08:40:00.000-07:00

As you all know, I contributed to the Earth Hour event, which was cool, cuz this was the first time

for me to joined a world wide event like this which involves the progress of

reducing the chances of global warming :d

so this was my desk, which was placed with two little blue candles, and the funny part is that
you can't see the mess on the desk hahaha :p (While Earth Hour-ing)

these are the two little blue candles, I just had to take a little photo session
cuz, my camera is good on close ups, not like normal distances when your taking a photo

I wanted to put more pictures of my house, but -__-

all the pictures i took, was completely DARK ..

soo, these are just like .. 1/4 of all the pictures, not much but.. yeah ..

cuz, i gave up afterwards hahaha

EARTH HOUR+

2011-03-26T01:34:00.000-07:00

so, everybody is freaked out about EARTH HOUR ! Me, I'm also spreading the word. sooo, don't forget

kayy ;)

REMEMBER !

the link for the picture above is here!

Earth Hour 2011 Official Video from WWF on Vimeo.

check this out guys, I really really love the concept that we save one hour of electricity for our planet :)
sooo, forget kay! at 20:30 - 21:30 all over the world ;)

REMEMBER ! ;)

kay, I'm late for my extra classes, see ya soon ;) and tell me about your EARTH HOUR hour hahaha

peace out!

The Inner Bookworm in me

2011-03-24T13:38:00.001-07:00

I really wanna read these books, hehehe

I want to read these books above cuz I kinda got pulled by the title, and I guess it's something interesting :paccording to wikipedia, it's about a girl who died ...and bla blaa you should check this story out on wiki hehehhee

hahaha, I almost bought this book, but I rather use the money to buy a book for my National Exam .. (#anaksekolahalim) hahaha, even though I wanted to buy this so bad -.- When I was the bookstore, I read the back cover, the main point of the story,and it was really funny, my friend also recommended me to read this ahahahaha, it's mostly about how a boy's crush, and how he's trying to get her,but everytime he wants to make a "move" something really stupid happens .. UURGGHHH I WANNA READ IS SOOO BADLYY but after UN (National Exam) -.- but, I might read it soon :) hehehehhee

Hell to the NO

2011-03-23T08:40:00.000-07:00

From "yyyeeyyyy" to "wiiiiiiii" to "whaat?" to "whyy ??" to "whaat ?!?!?! noooooooooooo!"

the 5 stages of crushes.
1. "Dude .. this guys is so handsome, kind, smart and cool"
2. "OMG! I'm in love.." (having a crush)
3. "Whaat?? no wayy that's true! :( "
4. " Why ?? I've done everthing right ? :(("
5. "whaat ?!?!?! noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!"(NUCLEAR EXPLOSION)

and everything is back ... to normal :)

2011-03-18T17:05:00.001-07:00

"WHEN YOUR ANGRY AND YOU SHOW YOUR MIDDLE FINGER, BRING UP YOU POINTING FINGER, AND SHOW YOUR PEACE :)"

-Pinkan Pertiwi Kario.

crushcrushcrush

2011-03-18T16:55:00.000-07:00

hello y'all! okay..that sounded weird. Umm, suup dawwg .. that was even weirder.. Um, let's start with HI.
hey all of you strangers I have no Idea where you come from, I hope your not a green monster from my closet. Anyways, I just wanna tell you guys, how my days have been. They've all been, actually the same. But, I heard this song called "Friday" by Rebecca Black, and I thought "wooow.. this made my day" hahahaha, fun fun fun, fridayy fridayy, hahahaha. That was funny. You guys should check that out on youtube. I'm sure you guys already knew hehe.

School is just work. I have to prepare for a FINAL exam .. on SUNDAY -__- I thought sunday mornings should be happy, just like what maroon 5 said but not this sunday. I can't freakin sing "driving slow on sunday morning, and I never wanna leave" in my version it will be like " tears are fallin on sunday morningg" hahaa, that was "funny" . Crap. This sucks.

I had a friend who was in this situation, where cried, cuz she was so humiliated in front of her friends. Well they're not even called friends, cuz they laughed at her cuz of some stupid shit that was just a mistake. I honestly felt her pain. While her so called "Friends" were laughing, she was in the girls bathroom crying of how stupid she was. I personally think it was not funny. And she's not stupid okay, just cuz it's a little accident. It's not funny when you laugh at your friend like that. Don't know you how it hurts, to be laughed at your own "friends"?? have you ever thought of how hurt she is right now ? I just hope it wont happen again to her. Stupid people yeah that who you are.

Anyways, besides all the shit that happened this week, at least there's one thing that made my cheeks red.
I remember that time when I said "yeah guyss.. I'm currently not liking anybody now" well, that promise just broke. I'm crushing on somebody now.
It's so complicating, the whole story. How it started and how I hope will end. He's just so perfect, all the things he has, are all on my list :) well, I don't know if God gave me this opportunity for me. But we'll see. I first want to know, how he is. And get to know him first. What game he likes, I think I know. What he likes to eat. blablablaaa It was .. crush at first site hahaha

ps. Don't smoke and say no to drugs, but say yes to books, which is what I should be doing now .. studying.
night rangers~ ;)

This is how I feel

2011-03-11T11:47:00.000-08:00

Single Ladies~

2011-03-06T08:25:00.000-08:00

anywayy, just to let you know, mm if you've been reading my past poems.. emm.. it's mostly about love right? well, I'm not anymore, hehe
so, just to let you guys know that, gw anak alay yang bimbang, tapi gak sekrang :) positively suuuuuurreee about this one. And when I get someone one day, i'll tell you guys :p orr you probably know it from facebook first hehehhee
peace~

ini kocak abiss, dan gw suka liriknya hehehhehe :p
I'm single and veryy happy~

2011-03-05T12:44:00.000-08:00

When you're told not to, why do you still do it?

-sinning

Trying so hard

2011-03-05T10:42:00.000-08:00

heyy guyss, have you ever wondered how to sing a theme of your favorite anime show ? haha well I've been trying so hard to sing my favorite anime show! which is CardCarptor Sakuraa. I used to watch this show every time I go home from school. When I was in the elementary school. 1st till 4th Grade. I'd turn on the tv, switch the tv channel to animax, and sit infront of the tv and trying to follow the words that Sakura is saying ahaha in Japanese haha it's was hilarious. Till now, I can't sing the song. haha. Here's the song !

If you listen to it, her voice is soooo high. I could reach it when I was like .. 6 years old. But now I'm 13, that was .. mmm.. like ... 7 years agoo! I think was still listening to the Jonas Brothers and Hannah Montana! hahaha good timesss, please comment if you've ever liked them before. Because I was a HUGE HUGE HUGE fan of both of them. Best of both worlds ?I would sing it in the showers .. till now :D hahha my little secret just got exposed.. by myself hehehe.. and JB ? mmm I used to think that Joe was the coolest one from all.. and I still dooo!I think he's cool hihihi well, not as cool as Justin Bieberrr riggghhtt? hehe

ps. I'm a belieber :p

We Were Born For This

2011-03-04T05:52:00.000-08:00

Have you ever wondered how I study ? (no) well, I'm gonna tell ya anyway

STEP 1.

CRANK UP THE VOLUME!

i usually play PARAMORE - the ultimate-best-everr-band of all time. I play the RIOT! album, since that's the only album I own from paramore -__- but I intend to buy more .. paramore .. albums ;) when I'm 18 or so, cause my daddy said that I can have a credit card by then .. (cachiiing) (not cacing hahahaha) ps. cacing means "worms" in Bahasa Indonesia :p

STEP 2.

Liquid Tender

Get yourself a good cup of coffee or in my case, hot chocolate, or just plain old white milk. But if you are studying for a HUGE exam, I encourage you to drink lotsss and lotsss of SODA. That will keep you hyper at night so can .. yes, study moree. Or just something UN-healthy, cause it's better that wayy (ajaran sesat) (Doin't listen to it) hehe, drink juices like apple juice or pineapple juice :)

STEP 3.

Ready, Set, Go!

Crab your book. heehe .. GRAB your book (Or what my friends like to say, paper filled with words) and start readiiiing :)

after you read, I'm sure you become .. one .. hahahha just kidding. It sometime's happen to me. Like once, I was studying math (yeaah, a shocker, I know) for 2 HOURS, and it felt like it was longer than an old lady trying to cross the street .. (lebay) but it felt like 6 hours. My mind was soo focus, that I skipped my afternoon lunch -___- and I think my mom had fried chicken with sambel, crushed chillies with tomatoes, sugar and lots of chilly :) but I skipped it -___- but then I had it the next day which was really satisfying :D hihihi

ooh yeaah, when you start reading your history book or what ever the book is, when you're about to start your exam, try not to cheat guyss -__- cheating on exams are like cheating on your girlfriend or boyfriend. It's a sin. You're not being honest about your answers. Which is 100% not good. It's awful .It won't give you a smile at the end. You won't say "Dude .. I finished that math exam all by myself!" . Besides, if you do, it won't help you. It's just to let go of the stress ? think again. It's just going to give a whole heck of MORE PROBLEMS. More problemoo~ soo, Don't cheat. Keep it real. kayy ? keep that smile and be strong to face it.

PS.don't forget to pray first before studying 'cause we all need God's help in every second ;)

and I think i gotta study too, soo gud luck for all of you UN-ers Im feelin yo paiin ;)

Please kidnap me ?

2011-03-03T10:13:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling reaaaaaaaally bored.
And I'm trying not to blab about love, but more, WRITE poems about love, or, you can see how my surrounding has been ,, kaaaayyyyyyyyy? (sorry pinkan, but I don't care) hahaha made yaa think (?) okayy, that was really weird.

btw, I AM feeling bored.,. I had a lot of things goin on at school, so have to study, study, and blaa blaa blaa UN stuff.. soooooo
I might not be updating a lot on my blog. sooo, if you are an alien from marss, send my regards to your friends there, and say PEACE from,, the gypsy girl~ from Cairooo, but she's an INDONESIAN btw :D

soooo,
STAY COOL, GET SMART, BE ASBTRACT

ps. umm .. guys, when your chasing a girl, try to make her feel like she's .. "the only girl in the world~" rather than annoyed .. justt sayiing hahaha
but if she rejects it, respect it, and .. maybe fate will tell :p

2011-02-26T08:56:00.000-08:00

If someone insults you, just leave. 'Cause she is not mature enough to realize that she did something wrong. And is not worth for the stress.

Everything in Paraphrase

2011-02-20T17:06:00.000-08:00

Thinking back into past
little smiles are shading my greys
Closed eyes slowly open
To see how clear, blurry temptations are
Seen from a distance yearn distance

Once upon a time a princess found her prince
Falling hard, falling on unstable water
at a palace for competitions
is an expectation for complications

Got pulled by the current
having the climax of happiness

Dear,
I wanted to pull up stakes
ooh dear, I this won't do

Dear,

I wanted to pull up stakes

ooh dear, I this won't do

Open to the next page

Oh you, locked me in a cage

fundamentally ill, never really had what's real

Let's leave this all alone,
like you did to me,
Not happy to be born?
I'd never knew this could be

I turned invulnerable
Nothing can make me fall again
Pull my pride and push me away
Boy, I don't care, I think you're gay

I have seen the truth
all about you,
Crushed my tears, I let them dry
Burned my soul, I let it fly

Never seen, never seen,
Never seen like this before,
cause babe,

I turned invulnerable

Nothing can make me fall again

Pull my pride and push me away

Boy, I don't care, I think you're gay

Seeing everything in a paraphrase
Made me wear glasses

inspired by *******
~~for all of you out there, who got hurt by your x-boy~~

A Manchester United Goal

2011-02-18T08:50:00.000-08:00

These are my goals ...

Hopefully I can fulfill my angles after my MASSIVE exam ..

1. Learn how to play sudoku

I really want to play this game cuz ...

It's on my Blackberry hahaha

2. Learn the chords of Bimbang - Melly Goeslow

I want to learn how to play this song, cause it just describes all my experiences these days .. months

actually, and it's just so perfect .. it's really nice to the ears haha, you guys should hear it some time ;)

ps. Melly Goeslow is this " Madonna " in Indonesia, she's unique, and she's 100% Indonesian :D haha

jussttt sayiing :p

3. Hack Someone's Facebook Account

hahaha, this is a funny one. I want to hack someone's facebook account just for

fun kay .. just to .. fill my bored spaces hahaha

4. Be a photoshop cs3/4/5 noobieee

I want to learn how to use the photoshop correctly, with some real, editing

like .. levell and all those complicated stuff

I think it's cool to be a photo editor, who really edits pictures into

something interesting and modern look :)

if you want to know who I mean .. check out Her Pictures on facebook.

There you can see some of her edited pictures that I LIKE :)

ps. she also has a blog ;)

Hopefully I can complete my goals AFTER EXAM hahha :P

ps. If there's something on your mind that can help me do a new thing, please say it on the

chat box, somewhere at the right hehe

I've be happy to do it.. except it involves crime, getting me out of school, and drugs

-______-

14-02-2012

2011-02-14T06:20:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's day everybody :)

I want to be say congrats to all of you who got a piece of a heart shaped chocolate from someone you love, because I didn't -___- haha, just kidding, I really didn't get any, but I'm still happy for those of you who did. :)

haha, I just want to say that Valentine's day is a day where people say "I love you" and mean it .. cause today is the last chance for them to really burst their mind out. haha just kidding. Valentine's day is a day of love, a day of happiness. But, here in Jakarta .. it was raining -___- but that didn't keep the valentine's day spirit down :) "didn't " hahha, well, I'm stupid. I'm happy but sad. I can't tell if V day is going to be a the perfect day for me. Would it ? I hope so.. I hope that guy would be sweet, and brave. Tough for soft. Weird but wise. Joke around but still keep on tract at the situation . That would describe the perfect person for a BF haha .

I've never had a BF before. I was "Single and very happy~" all this time :) haha
just wanna say this little thing ..
"HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY !" :) spread the love, say it to your friends, parent's, siblings, and your crush .. hahaha :p

Hatred

2011-02-11T06:23:00.000-08:00

I hate :

- people who hate you for no reason

- cats

- bad food

- when you're angry you fall on your butt

- people who expects you to answer their chats

- people who think geeks are primitives

- annoying songs

- annoying people

- annoying boys

- when you're pouring your heart out, and that person is not listening to you cuz he/she is too childish to understand

- people who think they'e too fly

- mosquitoes

- annoying teachers

- expensive clothes

- stepping on dog shit

- being sick

- when I can't say what's on my mind

- when guys aren't being a gentleman

- when the CD's broken

- when there's no internet

- someone is disturbing me, while I'm studying

- when my ice cream is melting and it's on my shirt

- when I can't sleep

- when I'm in love

- when I'm being played

- when I'm angry

- when I cry

- when I'm being too stupid to realize

- when I change

I hate .. myself

I hate myself for hating everything surrounding me. Shut up and live it.

Say hello to fake

2011-01-27T06:59:00.000-08:00

Things haven't been the way it's suppose to be. I've know realized that the world is very cruel .. like it is. I am too. I can't differentiate between what's right and what's wrong. I'm stuck between to paths that will lead me to a far different place than where I am now. And I hope I've been doing good. Cuz I've never really seen anyone who loves me, the way I am .. and only wants to be with me. .. just cuz I'm the only option they want to be friends with me. I'm saying this cuz this is MY BLOG. I can say the anything I want. I really feel insecure. About anything of me. I don't feel that people appreciate me and understand me. They never really have been. I've never seen a best friend. I am always apart from all the things I want .. but I get the things I need. So .. does it mean I don't need them ?

Haha .. Only God knows . He loves me yesterday, today and forever. That's the only thing that can pull me from misery. I know that I have a great family. And, sometimes, friends don't really have to step into the big picture. It's always been me, my family and God. That is something that I always try to remind myself. I can't set an alarm just for me to realize that the world is cruel .Besides it's not always about us. We can't be selfish and we never should.

I'm just trying to type what's on my mind. It's always been the free place for me to scream. Don't you agree?
My history with friends always end up the sameeee way. It has been like this for as long as you could think of. When ever I have a bestie, there's always this separation. We say goodbye and move on. My longest friendship was when I was in year 1 to year 4. By longest friendship, I mean .. the longest capacity of time for me to be with a friend but because we hate each other and things turn badly .. no. I get separated from a friend is because I always move to other places. Since I was in Kinder Garden. I've always been the new girl and leave me friends.

I just don't know what a real friend is. I don't really know HOW to be a friend. I've always been myself around friend, that includes farting, burping, eating and .. all those random stuff you do with a friend. But .. it's just that, they never have to me. I feel like the world doesn't really give me something back for me to thank. But .. there always been this little hole that makes me so frustrated about everything .And when I say everything .. I mean EVERYTHING.

A whole lot of problems

2011-01-15T14:28:00.000-08:00

Some things are better unknown
At the back of head, on top of our brain
Out of the eye, Inside the heart
A telescope wont solve the trick
some things are unseen, but better felt

Things stay the same when they change
to change it is to stay the same
When you increase your height
You decrease your heart

increase the size of your heart
It will soon explode
For him to fix, he needs to love
For everything to get better

Even if it sends him to heaven
I will shut my eyes and see how it will move
Moving on, Moving on

Some things are better unknown

At the back of head, on top of our brain

Out of the eye, Inside the heart

A telescope wont solve the trick

some things are unseen, but better felt

Indescribable is the description

The perfect time will soon come

and pass us away

Listen to the silents

Teaching me priceless lessons

Calling for help

In a dessert palace

Serviced with all the finest moments

Bringing joy in every second

I love the bridge

It will bring me to a new place,

Where I might not see you

Who has made me smile at the wrong time

Can two different elements combine?

Too young to be loved

Two young people in fake love

Ghostly feelings fly across the room

Like a flower it will bloom

Hoping for something that can not be returned

Will end permanently inside

Thoughts are growing in me

Inside of me, me, me

Easy to be judge

hard to be honest

Too many differences

Too many hopeless faces

Balanced in elegance

Beautiful in caring

Pretty on the face

but it's like looking at air

I can not see, but only feel

Still confused and making

a fuss of everything unreal

The monster will soon creep

Looking for a ship

to take me away, to an island

I shut the lights down

as I go with it

Remembering a memory to keep

Hoping for a good night sleep

A wish to wish

2011-01-13T08:44:00.000-08:00

Sekarang udah 2011, dan .. menurut orang orang yang ada di dunia sana, kalo kiamat tahun depan ... I'm not sure when, but .. I think it is .. next year ? .. anyways .. Time flies so fast. It's 2011 already ?! .. I still have some flashbacks in what happened in 2010. All the mistakes and all the achievements. All the tears and all the laughs. hahhaa. they make me laugh :[ hahhaa .. that looks like a sensai .. I think that's how you say it ? I'm not good in Japanese, cause I do not know how to speak it -___-

I'm super duper happy cause the internet is back oon .. YEAAAA, :) super happy .. even though I know I have some UN to do but .. I really feel like blogging .. It's been a while.

I'm pretty much going to tell you how I've been.

In 2010, I've made BIG mistakes, and hope to fix them this year -if I can still remember my new year resolutions,anyway- I really would like to put myself in the right track. Cuz that what I'm kinda obligated to do. haha. Those mistakes are .. such as .. about personal things like about how I treat others, how I treat myself, how I react to others. 2010 is the year where my teen life starts. And .. hhaha I know it's pretty stupid but .. I still think of myself as a 7 year old child, who still likes barbies and pink things hahaha.. And suddenly I forgot that that has passed almost 5 years ago .. CORRECTION! 6 years ago, I'm gonna be 14 this year. I hope I can be more mature at handling things. I still have to learn.

Love life, mmm.. not to stable. I'm between two different things, or state of mind in my head (?)

Everytime I like someone .. he doesn't like me ... and I forget about him in a split second. And .. it all turns around. Which makes a big mess. It's like spoiled art work from a kinder gardener. Well .. I actually think that little messed up painting from them are pretty artistic in a certain way. In any way, there will always be a problem between us. It's expectedly unexpected. I know it. That always happens. That's why, I always have this sort of feeling if I like someone. All those thoughts will cross my head "But .. he's .. blaa blaa. Can he really .. blaa bblaa blaaa. What about blaa blaa blaaa. Will I get hurt ?" -_________- that usually pisses me off. My consistence in this problem is not stable. It never was. And I always think that .. there WILL be someone for me .. but .. haha I'm still 13 :P I shouldn't be thinking about these things.

Which is why .. I should be studying cuz .. I HAVE A FREAKIN EXAM TO PEE in 3 MORE MONTHS

-__________________________________________________________________-

I'm excited, happy, sad, scared, ready, sleepy in the same time

soo that is why that might block me from blogging so .. for all of you ANAK UN ! I'm with ya sistaaaa

gw bisa ngerasa rasa di dalam hati lo maan .. gw juga takut .. -____- udah gitu nnti katanya tgl 25 April lagii -___- ..well .. good luck ya boys and girlss, jangan lupa belajart, dan jangan online aja kayak gw -___- hahaha

so ..
STAY COOL
GET SMART
BE ABSTRACT ~(^.^~)

2010 highlights :)

2010-12-31T01:53:00.000-08:00

Highlighted things of the year by Pinkan Pertiwi Keynes or .. Pinkan Pertiwi Farro .. okaay .. it's Pinkan Pertiwi Kariodimedjo :p

Started this blog (i think)
Ikut Paskibra untuk pertama kalinya (hopefully the first of many)
Lulus 2 SMP (hahahaha)
Went to Lombok for SILN and got 2nd place for Story Telling SMP for MA SKewll yoooo
Played on ps3 (GT5) for the first time
Started playing the guitar
Bought a Blackberry with ma own moneey (uuu yeaaah ~(^.^~) )
My Arabic Teacher Died
Had Christmas with family and had an awesome time :)
Ketemuan sama mba rara sama mas zaky
My best friend went to jakarta .. but we met again :) but just for a while -__-, but it's okay :)
Came back to my lovely country .. TWICE! haha
Sipped on my first slurpee
Started twitter (@pienkeyi)
Officially anak UN (first time)
Met some great friends at SILN
Saw DIANA RIKASARI and SABILA ANATA in the same place and date :)
Had quickly after one year :D
Saw my old pictures :))
Danced at the Opera in Cairo for the International Relations of Indonesia and Egypt with my mates.. it was AWESOME
Experienced some really dramatic and painful things
leaving my friends for .. (not really happy about this one)
Spending New Years in Jakarta with family :)
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HAHA! there are actually MORE THINGS but .. I'm too lazy to type them all HAHA!

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS:

Get skinnier :p
Get taller
Get smarter
Be more ORGANIZED
Be more CAREFUL OF THINGS
Be more prettier (lol)
Be more MATURE
Be a BETTER PERSON

on the 31's December 2010, at those last seconds before the clock reaches 12 o'clock, we will look back at all our stupid and STUPID mistakes , look forward, and hope for a better year :) happy new year everybody :p

okaay .. this might be my last post of 2010!
so ..
STAY COOL
GET SMART
BE ABSTRACT ~(^.^~)

Childhood, Christmas, Cheers and .. Cheese!

2010-12-30T11:35:00.000-08:00

pas mau nnton bola di Sency~

with brothas from the same mothaaa

still more to come :p

Long Physiologic Stuff

2010-12-25T11:19:00.000-08:00

I'm really going through really weird things in this December. I had my UAS

and I skipped it -___- for this trip. I'm going to stay here 'til the 7th of January.

Which is after NEW YEARS ! in 2011 o.o

gosh~ can't believe it's going to be 2011 already ?!

anyway .. back to the story. I discovered a lot of unexpected things. I learned

a lot from it. I learned that people can get hurt easily, and we may not know

it, cause they're closing their doors. I learned that you can't force someone,

to get what you want, and how bad it hurts, you know it's the best, but your

feelings aren't on the same page. It's not easy to do, but it's easy to make.

That's it. That's basically what started my whole ship wreck.

For all of you heart-brokens listen to this . And .. that includes me.

Broken hearts can be glued together again.

I'm sure of that. According to my experience. I've been to big holes, or,

that's just how I see it. But the out come is that .. they're just little scratches.

It's not big. "Love is a small thing, people just make them look big" ( or .. something like that)

That saying is true. We do think that love is soooo important.. but .. not in that way.

Well, I think, I do. Love is a feeling through someone. And that doesn't

have to be shown by having a boy friend or girl friend. It can be shown by

caring, forgiveness or ... friendship.

By realizing what's right and what's wrong heals your heart. Even though it's

heavy to carry, .. what the hell can we do about it ? SHIT! we can't ..

LIVE IT, LEARN IT, LOVE IT.

there is no easy way, that's whats going to be.

I've liked some people, and I ended up, well, it's either they leaved me

alone, ignored me or .. just didn't cared and stayed the same or .. never

really knew that I like him :p but .. they all ended the same

I GOT OVER IT !

As soon as I realized that there were something wrong, I put in on my mind, faced it,

and sometimes cried about it (which was stupid) and got over it :)) Cuz ..

Why do I have to feel good in a bad way over

some guy that wont even be worth for me ?

and I'm not worth for him ?

it was that easy for me to let go, I never really loved someone. Some guys do like me

(bukan sombong ya) and .. they all see that I'm better as a friend that something else ..

than that .. (if you know what I mean -___- )

so, for all of you heart brokens out there (me too) ..

stay cool,

get smart,

be ABSTRACT :)

Sweet Fashion

2010-12-25T10:40:00.000-08:00

had my first slurpee and the can was awesome :)

bought this really cool necklace and I saw it in a disney channel tv series :o

I am Miss Understood

2010-12-14T07:14:00.000-08:00

Fooled myself. Oh how blind it was. Those dark bright days, where all human beings have fallen into, are the places I am currently in now. I think it's a part of the teenager life. Where all the complications come in. Where they dominate. I guess, being wise in every situation, is the most important part of this life. To know what will come and what will leave. The consequences, and all those crappy things. School is also a part of it. But, that's not what I want to talk about today. I got into a really bad situation, for my level, that involved others in it. I wasn't happy about it. The people in the story, are my friends and possibly enemies.

I was in a game. Blind-folded. And unknown. I didn't know what to do and got charmed by a charm from a charming. I was happy at first, but curious at the same time. It was suspicious but, it was meaningful .. to me (?)

Still an unsolved rubik cube, the story is still being written.

It was a really sunny day, and turned into a dark light in a second. It was awkward, but nice. Weird but, realistic. Real, but fake. Yeah, I think that fits. Real but fake.

Typically, I'm a girl. A small girl. Still 13. And doesn't really know how the world would end like. How my world would end like. How I, will end up like. Still not afraid, of taking chances. Go wild in every second. And by wild, I mean, reckless, stupid, mindless and more stupid..

What do you think about love?

I don't know yet

Why?

Cause I've never felt it before

So?

I do not know what love is, and.. no one has ever said it to me. No one. ever,

I know some guys who like me but , never really had the guts to say it. Or maybe it's not it..

maybe, I am just miss understanding it. Maybe, I am over making every signal I get. Maybe, I'm played by my own game? or someone else's game ?

I don't know. Ironically.

I've come to the scene where, I have been heart broken before, ~~and it still stops by and ruins my heart again.~~

Maybe I've healed?

I had this vision before. I've seen this all before. How a another person will treat me like. So I've come to prepare myself from this huge war.

It turns out ...

THERE ARE FAR MORE WARS THAT I (WE) HAVE TO FACE IN THE FUTURE.

I might be in many worse situations, but, we should try, to figure it out, and when you get your answer, try not to break someones heart, it's not really pleasant.

xoxo

ABSTRACTNESS

The Five Senses

2010-12-13T10:03:00.000-08:00

I went to Lombok to attend in a competition and got 2nd place on Story telling SMP :p

had lots of fun there with all of my friends from school :) thanks guys :*

this is a picture with my friends (guy : Fattah (bdi) girl : Diana) yeaah, they're all crazy haha

that's me, with the green sweat shirt, and with my story telling prends :p

MISS YOU ALL!

PS. I'm going to give you all a small chunck of EVERY HUGE GIGANTIC things that happened when I was away :)

S-M*SH up

2010-11-14T13:52:00.000-08:00

Haven't you heard? I'm stuck on a verse. I am stuck on a boy, who fills me with joy. I knew I was wrong to jump straight on into this picture so pretty. But, he is so pretty to me. (Your Song - Kate Walsh)

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
telah menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain
(Dan sebenarnya - Yuna)

Darling, and you, are the only exception, and you are the only exception, and you are the only exception and you .. are .. the only exception~
(The Only Exception - Paramore)

Teenagers. We count the years, we think we're smart. But we're not, we don't know anything. WE DON'T KNOW ANYTHING
(Teenager - Paramore)

Pyramid Bonding

2010-11-13T11:15:00.000-08:00

I've lived in Cairo for a year and 3 months now. I feel so blessed to live in a historical, ancient, ~~perfect~~ place like this. I just had to post about it. For all of you foreigners, you guys MUST come here. It's amazing.

ps. This picture is taken by a friend of mine, when they went to the Pyramids of Giza,and

I thought this is just superb. (edited by : Pinkan Pertiwi Kariodimedjo with Toycamera Analogcolor)

Busy Bee

2010-11-08T13:18:00.000-08:00

Ohh me, ooh my, Another rush across the sky, here I GO !

Everyday, the sun goes up and shines it's brightness to the people of earth .. well unless there are other living this in this planeet ?? ahahaha just kidding .. but, who knows? maybe you're an alien right this second ?? are you ? okay, aku geje. I've healed from a lot of stress going on. I've realized so many things. One. I am a type of person who makes everything such a big deal. I'm not saying it's bad, but it's sometimes good, but I'm over making it. As usual. Gosh, I just changed the topic ahaha, anyway, in this post I want to type trashy things about my busy life. I'm at school everyday. And I go home at 6 or 5 pm. It's so tiring but I love it. I love hanging out with friends. And especially with the ones you love. :) yups,, I am back ! ahahha not really. Just still confused which thing to do is right or not. I have lots of friends that have felt every little thing in their life is complete. I haven't. I shopped in ZARA for AGES ! ahahaha "gosh~~ pinkaaan, you're such a material girl~~" ahahaahaha,
Yups, I am busy, like a busy bee. I buzz and BUZZ people off ahahaha. I've seen how people reacted for the things I've done. And these things aren't positive. HAHA! *sarcastic laugh. Yeaah. I kinda hurts but, this is what I get. So next time you think you're being hurt, it's not cause of that "STUPID, SELFISH, G*Y, JERK, BRAINLESS, POINTLESS, INSECURE, UGLY .. person" is cause of yourself not others :)
I'm busy of crazy things.

I've had my hurt broken, and it's not for the first time. But I still don't have my mental ready for any car crash going through my way. I'm still not ready. Have you ever felt like doing something that makes you bloom but you know, and you're really sure, that the flower will wither soon? that's my situation now.

"Let it out .. let out .."

-Dreamy Theater - Wither

that song really described my situation and this one as well

PARAMORE - TEENAGER

you guys should hear it

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh .. waiting sucks ..

A Little Piece of Heaven

2010-11-06T12:02:00.000-07:00

theme song of the week P!ink - Raise Your Glass . . . let's cheers to FREEDOM :)
Dear stupid ugly faced guy.

I am a girl. And don't get fooled by my ugly and big headed face and height. But I have a brain, unlike you, you don't. I can scream out all my uglyness in me and it would still have nothing in yours. You can call me childish and what a fool I am for even calling you a friend, cause I'm actually not. Not anymore. Read the words in my post, hate me , talk about me behind my back and leave me forever. We have nothing now. We used to, but it faded. I don't know why. I think you're happier now than before. When we had something. I am happy. To see you end on the streets. You were cool and I once looked up on you. Now you're an expired milk that I threw out my head today. Sorry. For making such a waste in your time. Yeaah.. cause you're busy right ? Call me stupid, ugly, short, or any insult in the world. Story short. I may look easy going in the outside but can grow like hulk inside. I feel like ripping you in piece,s living me like this. Not telling me anything.How your day has been or if you had anything you want to share. When you were far apart from me. Way far. You went to the north pole and left me in the ocean when you turned into a heartless bastard. You are handsome, cool and smart. And yes. I am stupid for saying that. You can tell everybody about this and throw me in the Merapi Mountain hoping that I'll burn and die. But I'm not. I can still walk without you. I can sleep without you. I can smile without you. Boys. Stupendousness is something negative right ? No, pig. It means something wonderful this is why you need to have lessons. Calling me stupid, and yes. I have realized it. Yes I have. So, just stop doing what ever you're doing. I have moved on. And you should do so too. Confused ? HAHA !

We have known each other for a long time now. To be honest I DID feel happy (past-tense) but NOW (present) I feel EVEN HAPPIER. I think this how everything is going to work out. You and I are done. And we both know that. So, let's not talk- or in this case -chat. You are far from this place, this heart, this soul this homosapien .. ugly homosapien and let's not lie you are one too :) and that's what I used to like about you. You are "Different" in your own way. Hmmm can't really feel it now, can't cha ? yeaah .. we are so "alike". Very "alike" indeed

I hope you are happy now, well since that's what you weren't hoping back for me. Smile smile and let those wings brake cause that's not what my heart is feeling now. HAHAH! you have wasted sooo many time, words, thoughts of me. No, It won't work. And yes, I have noticed, next time if you want to talk about me, tell it in front of my face and I'll tell ya why.

Hmm.. it's funny right to see someone you like, chopping you into little pork pieces ?
Yes, I am saying I am a pig. I have realized that too. Typing all of this anger is such a relief. I can smile now. I feel so free. Gosh~ How stupid. I can't believed I actually once liked you. What a fool. I can't believe it. Thanks for giving an example of a guy you should never have contact with. Cause of you, now I know how to choose a "wise" guy. :) gay.
The type homosapien like you is called hypocrite. Check the dictionary. live it, learn it, love it right ? well that's what turned out to be anyway. Lots of "love". I am done

What a day :) (yesterday)

2010-11-06T11:57:00.000-07:00

1. HAPPY 28th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY DEAR PARENTS

28 years and .. one day .. you guys got married and had 4 wonder children .. well except the last one.. You guys are great parents that deserves the best. On the morning of your 28th Wedding Anniversary I woke up at 6 am and made you guys a breakfast in bed.. ft. Heart Shaped Omelets :)

I couldn't write "Happy 28th Anniversary" cause the plate didn't have space..
-__-"

2. Went to church and ate bread with wine .. for the first time. hhmm.. wine tastes a bit weird. It felt hot in the throat. OOh well, everything has to have a first time. Uupss, my English skills just dropped, But I hope you get the point.

3. I went shopping with my mama and sistaaa, and bought really cute things. My new babies

soo, gonna wear this EVERYWHERE ! yey HAHA

4. My family and I went to City stars, a really big mall in Cairo, the biggest and watched ... STEP UP 3D !! well, I watched it with ma sista, bunga. Ebo sama baba nonton film lain, cause they don't like dancing movies -__-"

5. Something abstract :p I was painting and I did this to the .. hhmmm .. uummm.. that :D

Something else :)

GEEK VS CHICK
GEEK !

Gw bikin udah sampe 4 bulan yang lalu -__-" but I forgot to post about it on my blog, soo there it is :) I made it all by my self, I just bought the cup, and changed the inside wrapping :)

Had lots and lots of fun in one whole day :) thanks God.
After having a real breakdown of my life (lebay) well you guys get the point that I was a bit pissed off . But, again, had lots and lots of fun in one whole-24 hours-day

Future Time Traveler

2010-11-03T13:06:00.000-07:00

I've seen you die
Die everyday
Quiet in your own way

Nothing can make you smile
only the girl you have waited
can pull you up from this sky

I've seen you cry
For nothing but to fry
Get angry for nothing
and kiss her goodbye for years

Imaginary blowing kisses
has haunted you these broken years
You're shirt is wet
from the misery you've been through

A basket ball may not bounce everyday
It's not a movie
It's not lord of the rings
But if this is a wedding bell
I want to hear you sing

Be happy and throw those tears
Be brave and let go of all your fears

Life is a big bowl of ugly
Just like yourself

Phone book is full with your phone number
stop blowing my phone
is what I hope to hear from you

I do care
I do feel sorry
But please don't put the pressure on me

I want to help
I want to cry
I want to scream at things I wish I'd slay

For those
I wish you well
For those
I kiss you goodbye
Everything will be fine
As time passes by

to my friend

The Teenage Curse

2010-11-01T14:39:00.000-07:00

The teenage curse

Would arrive with a boat

and take me to a dream land

full with secret diaries and empty boxes

would it help me to think?

Do i really need to transplant another brain. My life is at the edge of a valley where water over flows and never bring awake to this world. I wont wake up. I feel like dreaming. I really do want to let it out. I feel like screaming. And I once did. It didn't help me. Anything. When I'm laughing .. it's not really a cheerful laugh at all. It may cover my tears but leaves a scar on my forehead. My head lines make ocean waves ready to crash and burn in a deserted island. My tears are about to pop out of my eyes. Like they are tonight. Don't really know what's right and wrong.

People say I've changed.

I turned into a monster in my opinion. I've changed. My life changed. All cause of my hormones. My red jelly. I feel like cursing in German. French. English. Bahasa Indonesia. Rasanya gw pengen keluarin semuanya.

I don't get it. That's all I can think of. Need help. Need God. I need God. Walaupun sekarang hampir tiap hari gw mau nampar temen gw. Gw gal bisa control. Gw tau itu salah. Tapi ego gw yang gw gak bisa lepas. Susah. Susah banget. Dan gw bener" gak bisa senyum. Susah. Daripada gak ikhlas. Mendingan ga usah. It's gonna come out from your butt anyway. Crap. Camel Crap. Pernah gw injekin aps gw ke Piramid. That same substance is the same piece of mind of this situation. Pengen gw injek dan bersiin dari kaki gw yang jelek ini. Tapi yang butuhkan ada orang. Almost every friend that I look up to. Semuanya. I can't even say. This is internet people. The words I am typing right now might a a fatamoga tomorrow.

Sukarang udah mau jam 12 malem. gw nulis ini di ruang tamu sendirian. Psycho.

Brainless Genius.

2010-10-30T13:46:00.000-07:00

Disini gw ..
here I am .
Sitting on the sofa. Blogging about a lot of shit and crap of my life. My friend just turned 13. And I hope she won't feel the same way I am feeling right now .HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAYHAN ! wish all the best !
She's a funny person. She's really cheerful but can get down instantly. Like me. Exactly like me. Just in a different height . :P peace rayhan :D eehhehe, anywayy ..
yeaah hand to RAYHAAN !

blogging about expired milk is not good. Or nice. I feel emo just writing this. It's really weird. I can't really describe it. I'm feeling. Weird. I don't know if I should ask it or not. I don't know if it would bring me good or not. I don't know if it really feels the same way. I don't know. 3 simple words. Instead of " I love you" or " You are stupid" . No. I don't know. Is perfect in it's own way.
I feel screaming at it and rip my heart out just to show I feel. Is this it ? Or am I talking about 2 DIFFERENT things ? people say that I'm stupid. Cause I am .I am stupid knowing that this will go on. I am stupid for knowing that a friend will give it's trust to you , no matter what .Well I guess that's what I've watched in movies. Lies. Every single thing of it. Lies. I know a guy who once told me that I shouldn't feel this way. I should just let him hate me and slap me on the back. I should let him point a finger and laugh at my ugly face. Instead. I should point and laugh at myself. For being a female jerk. For being a brainless genius.

Here I am.

Lemons are sour

2010-10-27T14:46:00.000-07:00

Beberapa hari yang lalu, gw liat ade kelas gw yang masih 8 tahun, nangis karena melihat sahabat baiknya pergi ke Indonesia. Dan tangisan yang dia keluarkan bukan familiar bagi gw. Ini bakal jadi tangisan-tangisan pertama yang dia ngerasain dari BERIBU-BERIBU tangisan dan tissue yang dia akan keluarkan. And the first is always the roughest and the hardest. Cause you haven't got used to it yet. And especially when you're still in a young age like 8. Gw pernah nangis kayak gitu. Mata gw merah kayak setan cilik. Dan gw bener-bener sakit. Sakit banget. Dari sejak itu gw sadar kalo hidup itu pasti ada pahitnya. Gak ada di permukaan bumi ini yang akan "last FOREVER" itu sesuatu yang aku coba untuk cantum. Tapi hanya kasih sayang Tuhan, yang tidak ada hilang. Selalu abadi. Dan dari itu pun, pessimist gw keliatan seperti optimism gw .. Gw bisa jadi optimis dan jadi pessimis dari waktu yang pendek. Satu menit gw mikir dunia ini "WAAAAh !! gw dapet jam baruuu !" nanti sejam setelah ituu "yaaaah.. rusaaak! gw selalu ginii... selalu ginii... gak pernah ada yang bisa tahan lama" . Dan gw sadar, cuma gw bener" lost. Gw gak tau perbedaa antara benar dan salah.
Back to the topic, gw merasa kasian juga .. karena salah satu temen gw, bilang "Persahabatan yang kamu bakal selalu inget dan tak akan terlupakan itu persahabatan pas waktu kamu masih kecil. Karena kamu belum tau apa yang salah, atau apa yang temen lo lakuin yang seharusnya gak boleh. " Pasti lo mikir pas kecil friendship lo dari kecil sempurna banget kan ? kalo iya ?? enjoy you're life. Kalo nggak ? hhmm.. lo kayak gw. Gw dari kecil memang dijauhin, dari gw 1 SD gw ngerasain gmn rasanya di jauhin gara-gara gw apalaah .. jago gambar kek, ato apalaah .. gw juga gak tau siih sebernernya ... gw selalu di jauhin, gw selalu tanya ke diri gw sendiri. Apa gw ada salah sama orang ini ? apa gw keceplosan sesuatu ? kenapa ni orang tiba" benci gw ? dan gw selalu di hantui pertanyaan2 itu. Dari kecil. gw udah tau gmn pahitnya dunia ini. Gw udah tau. Walaupun mungkin tidak separah ini yaa.. tapii .. gw udah tauu.. kalo, persahabatan won't last forever, atoo ,, uang jajan gak selalu meningkat, atoo, temen itu bisa kayak gini di depan loo, pas di belakang, injek injek lo. Dan ahahaha, gw udah ngerasain. Gw udah nyoba. Gw udah tobat deeh.. dan gw selalu nyoba untuk gak menyakiti perasaan orang lain. Mau dia lebih tua daripada gw.. di bawah gw.. mau dia kakek kek, nenek.. gw gak mau.. Maka dari itu, gw nyoba untuk membuat situasi menyenangkan.. walaupun mungkin over yaa.. tapi live with it.. THIS IS HOW PINKAN ROCKS BABY ! dan kalo gw ada salah sama lo, lo harus terus terang sama gw .. agar gw bisa berubah,, make me a better person from the things that I've done. Itu ajaa ...

dari persahabatan - curcol - sampe curhat sampaaah .. gw mau tidur, sekarang jam 11 :50 malem, dan mata gw udah mulai tutup kayak ruko. byee readerss ... kalo ada ..
gw mau ngorok sooo..
NIGHT cairooo.. ps. Gw mau kentut :)) ahahahaha
night cairo, sweet dreams, don't let bed bugs bite. cyaaa latter ! ;)

"Welcome To The Teenage World" a.k.a Shit happens

2010-10-21T11:09:00.000-07:00

highlight of the day = mama's food was great .. from everything that happened, mama's food was great ..

that's it .. again .. it's food. Food can really make me better. Like chips and little fatty monsters. I had a bad day today. And Miss Amal (art and English teacher) is even teaching us how to sing bad day by Daniel Powter .. jiji banget gak siih ? rrgghh.. pokoknya hari ini ... ada ketawanya siih tapi .. cuma ketawa" maksa aja. Sekarang gw ilang di tempat yang gak jelas dan gw keder. Gw boke' dan gw pengen boker di tempat yang gak ada toilet. I hate it! I HATE IT! ini yang mereka bilang .. teenage world. Ini jauuuuuuuuh banget apa yang gw pikir pas gw makan burger sebagai kue ulang tahun gw pas gw ulang tahun yang ke 13.. jauuh banget. Gw liat kakak-kakak kelas gw yang sepertinya seneng dengan hidup. Ternyata .. yang mereka ngerasa itu sama kayak gw. Hmm .. lo mungkin bisa bilang gw so' tau, tapi mungkin lo sendiri pernah disituasi kayak gini.. SHit banget siih.. bikin muntah gw ..

Gw gak bisa apa-apa. Gw cuma tinggal di kota mesir ini. Gak bsa bebas seperti apa yang aku pikirkan waktu gw 10. Dulu pas gw 10 gw pikir hidup "TEENAGER" itu kayak di film. well .. gw sebenernya siih gak tauu ... tapii ya bagi gw "Hidup INI" tuuh indah gituu .. apa yang mereka maksud itu pacaran ? apakah pacaran doang yang bikin hidup mereka less-miserable ?
No, gw masih 13 dan gw gak mau pacaran sekarang.

gw tau kalo hidup ini bukan untuk tau kalo "waah ada orang yang beda kelamin yang care untuk gw, apalagi dia bukan dari keluarga gw .. blaaa blaaa blaaa blaa" ya gitu laaah .. omongan yang bikin nampar.

bagaimana pun, gw gak mau pacaran sekarang. Mungkin lo tau dari beberapa post gw yang lalu. Gw masih muda dan gw masih mau hidup situasi ini..apalaah pake behel .. di ketawain monyet .. apalaah hippo kek .. tapii gw gak bisa gak liat tulisan di otak gw

"LIFE IS HELL!"

Gw bener gak bisa, gak tau yaa, apa karena gw dramtis atau so' tau atau ge-er ~~(atau semuanya)~~kenapa .. gw memang bener" gak bisa gituu ..

akhir-akhir ini apa-apa kebawa bete.Dan sebenernya gw gak suka jadi bete gini. Diem. Gak jawab apa-apa. Loyo', letoy . Kayak gw mabok diem diem. Dan gw gak bisa lawan apa- apa. Gw memang tau kalo itu tuh salah, tapi lo gak tau situasi apa aja yang gw abis lewatin.Ini bukan sekedar permain mario sunshine yang masih ada kesempatan main lagi. Gak bitu jeng/bang, gw harus kerja keras banget. Dan kerja keras gw aja, bagi lo, itu kayak ngambil sendok pas lupa makan. Gw gak ada kerja keras. GAK ADA. dan itu aja yang gw bisa bilang. Gw bete bete dan bete. Dan ada kakak kelas gw yang bilang ke gw "Welcome to the teenage life" yang bikin gw makin sadar kalo .. lagu katy perry yang "Teenage dream" is crap.

Gw tau, gw memang hipokrit. dan yang lo pasti mikir tu "yaaa berubaah doong nyet!?!" dan gw memang nyoba, cumaa gw gak bisa . Gw masih ada terlalu banyak beban yang harus gw nampung.

Gw tu kadang diem, so' jadi orang spanyol yang jago main gitar. Padahal gw lagi main lagunya mba surip - C Am Dm G C .. kurang kerjaan banget gak siih ? gw gak suka jadi gini. Gw gak suka. Gw gak suka. Dan sampai sekarang pun gw gak tau, apakah ke bete-an gw ini karena orang lain, apa gw sendiri ? gw belum tau.. lo tau. kalo gw cuma monyet goblok yang cuma bisa masak ~~banyak~~telor sama air.

Yang gw butuh itu, seorang temen. Yang bisa bantuin gw. Yang bisa bilang kalo gw tuh monyet, gajah, king kong ver. Cewe kek. Gw sebenernya gak suka kalo ada orang muja" gw kayak ge kebagusan banget deeh ... jiji deeh, gw memang gak suka. Gw lebih suka orang yang ngejek gw. Karena itu bakal bantuin gw untuk jadi siap mental. Gw terbiasa dengan ejekan-ejekan itu. Ya dari gilang laaah, selalu ngejek gw gendut. Tapi gw gak sakit, karena gw suka itu. PS. gilang itu temen sekelas gw yang putih dan cakep looh, jadi untuk kamu yang single-ladies (beyonce) kasih tau aku yaa ;)

anywayyy, iyaa gituu, siapa kek, mas dadang, atau mas zakhie (kayak penulisannya salah deeh) tapii ya gitu laah, itu temen" cowo gw yang gw suka. Mereka gak mandang gw cewek yang anggun, karena gw memang nggak. Mereka jujur. Dan itu yang aku suka. Gw mau temen yang diluar gak suka, tapi di dalam sayang. Menurut gw itu ciri-ciri temen yang gw suka. Temen yang bakal jujur sama lo, kalo lo apalaah .. zippernya kebukaaa, atau, gancing b* mu udah di tutup? (untuk cewe)atau yang bakal bilang " eeh pinkan," "iya" "lo mirip monyet deeh" pasti gw bakal jawab "sialaan ! ahahaha" gw suka orang yang bisa gw ajak becanda. GW BENCI ORANG YANG SELALU SERIUS .. YUUUK bikin sakit perut. Tapi gw suka temen yang bisa becanda, dan tau kapan saat saatnya untuk serius.

beeechh, lama banget siih niih post. Mata gw mau pecah

AHAHAHAHA ! gotcha lol, anyway itu adalah review dari hari gw yang suram ini, dan ada juga info untuk tipe temen yang gw suka, dan sekrang jam 8:33 malam waktu KARIO mesir, saya pinkan pertiwi kariodimedjo, dan saya telah menghabiskan waktu anda. terimakasih

(it seems like smiling, but actually im typing this with a tear on my face)

SHETEE (tehee)

His Love is Bigger than your pain

2010-10-19T05:40:00.000-07:00

Weew ..
nama gw pinkan .. gw baru 13 bulan July ... hidup gw udah kayak tong sampah banget deeh ..
hampir tiap hari .. bete ..
I don't know anything. I don't know if I ruined someones dinner, face or picture. I may not even realize it, cause I am. I don't get this world. I don't get the teenage world.

There was this time when I cried. I locked myself in the bathroom and cried like hell. I didn't just cry for a lost phone or anything . But i cried for a hatred that haunted me all around. I have to admit, that, I am really annoying with my cheerful face. And some people told to control it. "Pink ... -___-' " ahahha well .. not really.. some people did get annoyed. Is that why ? why they hate me ?

Have ever had a feeling that you did something and made people look at you in a different way? right here .. this is what's happening ..
I get stared by human beings ..
Life seems like shit

I really feel like blowing a bubble and let the bubble pop my day dream, and carry me through reality .. which is camel and bull shit .. that's why I buy a bottle of bubbles everyday ... It makes me feel happy, and it makes me remember all the nice things I've been through when I was very young. When I was in Berlin, Jakarta and many other places. I used to have a big house when I was in Berlin. Well, actually I'm not sure if it was big, cause I was still 3 .. so for me .. it was big .. HUGE, and we had a green back yard .. with all those apple trees and oranges too. My mom doesn't really ket buy magazines, but Instead she LOVES to buy my ..
BARBIE !! yeah .. i was a barbie girl .. in a barbie world ahahaa .. anyway
and when ever she bought me a new barbie, I'd always ask her If we could by those bubble bottles .. and she actually allowed me to play with it. Even though she knows what klutz I am ..
anyway .. on the yard.. there i would play the bubbles ..

Bete .. bete..
I really don't know what to do .. well that's what I used to think .. Now I've realized that you shouldn't really care if a person hates you. What you have to stare is if you did something wrong .. that's it .. and if you did, try to ask the person if you did have any mistakes or problem. And you'll see what it brings you.

Waktu itu, pagi - pagi. Dan gw baru lagi pake sepatu siap-sipa mau berangkat ke sekolah. Bokap gw lagi nonton acara tv tentang Christianity gituu ... dan pas gw lagi make sepatu gw denger kata Pastornya gini

"GOD'S LOVE IS BIGGER THAN ANY PAIN IN THIS WORLD"

And if the person still hates you ..

sampai sekarang juga... ya udaah .. ahaha let me tell

ya something .. IT'S HER/HIS LOSS ANYWAY

for losing a super cool fried like you ;)

Curhat Sampah

2010-10-07T08:31:00.000-07:00

Aduuuhrrgghh !
gw bener" bete, tadi pagi, gw hampir gak makan apa-apa dan hampir gak ngomong apa". Bastirma Bil Bet..e
beneer bete gw. Dan gw juga gak tau kenapa? tiba" dateeng aja .. apa karena gw lagi suka sama orang? tapi siapa ?? apa karena gw stress sekolah ? sebenernya biasa-biasa aja kalii. Karena gw gak bisa nonton concert paramore? hhmm .. maybe ? but it's not going to fully finish the problem.

Karena gw lagi suka sama orang?
udah gw bilang, kalo gw lagi gak suka siapa-siapa, dan cowo terakhir yang aku sempet sukaa, ternyata gak suka gw balik, ya udaah, you choose .. to lose.
tapi sekarang, gw nyadar kalo soal cinta .. orang pasti bakal mikir kalo itu PASTI CINTA! tapi nanti, pada akhirnya, pasti tau kalo itu ternyata cuma sekedar, "ooh iyaa .. dia ganteng" itu doaang, dan akhir gak dapet apa-apa lagii .. makanya aku pasti sabar untuk nyadari, dan give me a break .. Im still in Junior High School, please deeh .. and ps. I have to face my final exam next year to go to high school.

Karena Stress sekolah ?
hhmm .. bisa iya bisa enggak. Soalnya aku hari ini baru mulai bimble pertamakuuu .. and Im soo "happy" about it. And .. things are fine, and I'm going to face my mids next week, and I should be studying by now. hahha well I just want to type some crap first. And soo .. school? not really? but class mates .. I've been through thick and thin lately, I have to be patient with a friend right now, IT has turned on my nerves. My friends are also being kind but .. some just .. ZzzZz i better not talk about THEM ..

Karena gak nonton concert paramore?
HHmm .. that's a question that I have to think twice about .. hhmm maybe .. it could be possible, TUNGGu! kok jadi bahasa inggris gitu siih ? hahha anyway ? karena concert paramore siih gaak .. tapii i just want to go there SO BADLY but, I wouldn't go coo coo about too actually ..

So over all, I just don't know,
I think it's what Im going to say for the every year, when Im in my teenage stage. Yeaah .. I DON'T KNOW, I'm a thirteen years old teenager FOR GOODNESS SAKES ! I don't know the heck what's going to happen to me in the next 10 years ..
I don't even know what I'm having for dinner tonight.. probably moms FAMOUS PHO noodles I love PHO, Im a PHO licker .. anywayy
BACK TO THE POINT

i just don't know ..... yet But I hope soo, cuz I can't just be silent and be like one of those mo people who thinks that "Life is a waste, so why live? I'll just cut my hand listen to Lamb Of God, or .. A Day To Remember or something .. " well, this is what I'll say "IF" I was an emo "Hey guys, Im an emo, and I hate it, I hate wearing black, cause if you do? mosquitoes will camouflage on you and they'll bite you. And I hate it, cause if Im an emo, I have to listen to loud music like .. I don't know ! just music and I'll write miserable poems about death and stuff. And I'll probably need a knife to cut my hand .. and hears so that I'll look cool" yeaah I think I would be an awful emo.

Keeping up with the ... emos (rrgghhh ... please deeh)
slaps and punches !
pinkan

Sorry

2010-10-06T03:37:00.000-07:00

heyy guyss, if you're reading my blog, sorry I won't post lost of post this year, cause I HAVE TO STUDY FOR MY FINAL YEAR EXAM AND UN soo ..Im so sorry, and I'm sure weren't really hoping to read my blog everyday... and just LIVE your life like Rihanna said :) PEACE

My Imaginary Friend

2010-09-30T06:48:00.000-07:00

we were friends tomorrow
chatting is where we speak
leaving out silents inside

you may be a friend
but,
i don't know what the differences are
between, "I like you" and "heyy there buddy"

every time you are there, I feel weird in a strange way
like the waves hit the shores and washed it all away

you actually helped me
and
through a dream, we met
a day dream in my head
it's not wet, like rain
leave me thinking in my bed

the sun will shed light on my desk
to study "Math Life"
You'll be my first chapter to study
and I'll have an exam to test if here
if i can see
if i can see you here with me

hope to see you latter
most of it wont really matter
a cup of tea and ginger light shoes
you'll be my little pooch

you're a boy with feeling
that silently cares
let's go bowling if you bare
strike me out everyday
with the feeling of love

holding hands
paradise island
you're not really buff, fat or handsome
but you are a friend that I actually could imagine

we'll be swinging trees up on the pyramids
dance on top of a black taxi with tap shoes
sing with monkeys in a Mexican restaurant
and sit up in a hill and watch the moon rise
as my feelings low

scare me like a scare crow
you feed me with care and snow
and ooh yes, when I'll see you with her
happily I'll smile in sadness

'cuz you are just my imaginary friend

2010-09-21T06:51:00.000-07:00

I woke up at 6 o'clock today, in the morning of course. With a massive head-ache, and a

lifeless body. When I woke up, left eye was have open and the right was closed. Yeah, it

was like I was keeping an eye from a robber or something.

This was all about that trip to a ship called dewaruchi, it was an ancient ship from 1956-- I

think. I had to wake up early, at 7 o'clock yesterday and we had a bus delay that made us

leave at 10 o'clock instead of 8. Yeah. What a bummer. The trip was awesome, but we came

back at 10 in the night, so the trip was about 12 hours from that day, I was so exhausted.

(tomorrow morning) and right then , I thought about going to school, and then, the head-aches

came back .. then I said "ooh, well I guess I'm not going to school today." It's 12 now. My

apartment is empty, population me. Then I went to the dining room to get a glass of milk and

bar of chocolate. That I had for breakfast.

Then I went online, checked my twitter account, blogger (d'oh?) and facebook :)

chatted, walled, twitted, and then I saw my friends status saying "@robocon 2010" from that

point on, I realized that I have MISSED the coolest even of the year, the robocon is a place

where people all over the world is competing for some kind of robot expedition, here in Cairo,

Egypt. I've heard that Indonesia (wohoo) is also competing, with Nepal I think, (info: twitter).

So, I'm just sitting thinking about how cool it was there, IF I was there ...

ooh well, sometimes we just have to face what's there, and just live with it, cause what else can

you do? just, puff a time machine? that's what's life is all about. How we adapt in life in many

ponds. How we can live in one leaf floating on water.

ooh well, for all you sici people :) have a great trip, I think you guys have probably went home now, hahha

Blink twice and put a smile :)

2010-09-18T06:19:00.000-07:00

hii guys,

gosh, this week has been great in a good and p sarcastic way. I've learned a lot this week. I've learned

how to be a good friend, make good choices wisely and to put your ego after the situation around you

and blaa blaa blaa.

here's the part when I get all wise-man and be mature-like.

-You can't really judge a bad thing from someone's space and personal life, if you don't know what's

happening.

-You can't have everything you want, if it's someone else's business.

- You can't go to a PARAMORE concert when you're still 13 -________-"

OOOH YEAAAAAAAAAAAAH ! that reminds me..

for all of you PARAMORE-LOVERS, in Asia ..

PARAMORE IS GOING TO HAVE

A CONCERT!

in Malaysia.

well, for all you who are reading this, untuk lo yang anak sic dan baca iniiiiiiii, thanks for all of you guys

who likes to MOCK me, of going to Malaysiaa.. yeaah,,, thanks -______-" (mas dadang and mba cima)

tapii untuk mba cima gapapa ^^ cause she is going there for holidays i think :D

but mas dadang, "yeaaaah~~" =.-" thanks ... really .. thanks -___-"

xoxo, Pinkan, have an awesome day ;)

Put on my sharp heels cause we're going ICE SKATING :d

2010-09-14T13:31:00.000-07:00

ssoo, soo, hey there guys, I just wanna tell you guys how great today was.. it was soo fun, I had so much fun, WE had so much fun, mba rapih, mba ila, and mba angel hihi , and also, abdulrahman, mba ila's little brother :D ICE skating, yuupss, this was my first time :)
at first I was falling, like a chicken, and the floor was cold ! (ofcourse ! d'oh ?! it's ice ?!?!) hahha, and evertime I fall down, I just want to fall more and more. cause I laughed, it gave me this kind of adrenaline, hehhe, it's fun. here are some pics from mba ila's phone :D

"I'm walking on cold ice ! wooow wooow,
and don't I feel good?! hey !
Alright now ..."

"I'm falling stupid for you .. uuh uuuh uuh"
-Marie Gibdie (i think)

Smile !

Pose for the camera girls !

After that, we took a bus to ramses, and then took the metro train, and then walked from the metro train to everybody's house :D (2 hours)

Oh yeaah ! we had lunch at an Indonesian restaurant, called "Warung Bobby"

ps. for all you foreigners "Bobby" is someone's name in the restaurant, before you guys think, negative things .. haha lol,

d'Kario's 4 3veer !

2010-09-12T09:33:00.000-07:00

trust me, this isn't anything close from all of the family members lol

hahhahaha, gw tuh bener" bersyukur punya keluarga yang kocak dna gokil, gak terlupakan juga, kebersamaan kita sebagai keluarga memang benar" kerasa. Aku sebagai cucu di Mbah kakung itu sangat senang. Dari nama post ini, nama keluargaku Kariodimedjo, keluarga ini tuh memang besar dan kocak. Mbah Kakung dan Mbah Puteri memiliki 12 anak, dan bapakku anak ke 10. Jadi setiapa ada acara, makanan pasti abis, secara, kelaurga ini juga congo' kalo soal makanan, termasuk aku .. hehehhe ^^", well anyway, kemaren keluargaku ngadain Lebarandi rumahnya pa'deku (walaupun aku gak dateng, tapi aku teteap rasakan kebersamaan kita tuh tetap mengalir) Seperti biasa, setiap tahun pasti seruuu, seruu dan seruu. Aku sangat merindukan mereka. Sangat" dan sangat. Aku juga cucu paling kecil dari semua, 1997 adalah tahun terakhir kel. Kariodimedjo a.k.a d'Kario's hahahha, kayak CSI banget yaa? well anyway, aku sangat, sangat dan sangat bersyukur punya keluarga seperti ini, dan aku juga yakin all of you there have the same feeling like me, cause family won't die like ~~a fish~~ my fish, or like a dead plant. It goes on and on and on... I put my hands up in the air sometime ... loooh ?? kok jadi kesituu, well anyway, I'm soo blessed. ^^

Bracie Braces like Ugly Betty

2010-09-08T15:46:00.000-07:00

hey there guys, have ever told you guys that I'm wearing braces now ? well now I've said it. yup I'M wearing metally-hurt-y-braces they're really tight now
They were killing me at the first day thought, like really .. they really hurt but .. then I got used to it after a few days, for all you brace-facers BE STRONG AND DON'T GET WEAK, cuz braces are cool, you can look really ugly, but the braces neutralizes them ... which is super COOLIO !
and now, it's been my 3rd? 4th? 2nd? week ? well I actually forgot and .. I changed my braces color from purple and orange to blue and SHOCKING pink :) at first i thought,"maan this man is going to stick his hands into my mouth and try to stick little piece of metal on my teeth ..." but at the end of the day, It finally paid of :) they look like little gum on my teeth soo ...have a nice day guys, that's an update of PInkie winkie the little, short, ugly brace face ... like betty hahaha, all i need is a job at mode ? hahha, well that's itm my hands are cramping from typing btw ... hahaha

Waving back to the future's memories

2010-09-05T12:26:00.000-07:00

Heyy there, hari ini, gw kentut air mata karena temen gw arum mau pulang ke indo besok, dan hari in hari terkahir gw bakal liat dia .. so made you this poem arum.

I'd like to see how it works

I'd like to see how it starts

I'd like to see how it ends

First Conversation :

I don't think there was

First giggles :

On the first day we met..

"Kacaaaang ..." (barengan)

"hahhahahahah" (barengan ... juga)

How did it end up ?

answer :

If you love someone

not in a "Ohh .. I love you soo much"-way

but .. as a dog or pet goldfish

a friend

We laughed so hard,

everyday

We laughed hard everyday

now ..

we hardly laugh .. any day

It feels so silent

the only thing I can hear is

past-tense laughs,

fake-tears

and more laughs

It felt good having a friend

It felt good having a friend like you

the only girl-friend in class

the only disney-freak, self-talker, nigahiga-lover .. in class

It felt good having a shoulder or a dry shirt to cry on

for a stupid thing called "monkey love?"

It felt good having a friend

It felt good having a friend like you

It's sad how time's having a marathon when we're happy

It's funny how time's having a snail when we're sad

people say time flies when you're happy

I wonder , how's the view is from the top?

I just want time to take things slow, and mellow

I want time to slide like a snail

who takes things like a slowmo

I'll always remember the times we laughed together with Diana

APA? foreveeer !

I'll always remember those awkward moments in class

I'll always remember our weird faces when we strike a pose

Friendship,
it's familiar word.
I think I've heard it about
a year now

Friends are like that little sprinkle cinnamon
on that cake
it makes life so sweet, it makes you have a taste of that piece of cake

We've been friends for about a year now,
A year and 13 days now, to be exact
I had a blast
like an atomic boom

We laughed till my stomach was bouncing
We ate shawarma like it's candy
We farted like cows who made global warming

Friendship is like this
You put a seed under soil
and over time, it will grow as a little flower

Friendship is like a sharp pencil
sharp

Friendship is like fallin over a play board at english class

Friendship is like an exploding volcano in social science

Friendship is like a korean dance song "tell me tell me t-t-t-t-tell me"

Friendship is like holding your poo and leaving the stink in the toilet

Frienship is like this
A ship, a friend-ship
we will sail into the sea, and we don't know where it goes
we'll follow the flow of the wind
we'll follow the blowing of the wind like we're blowing the candles of our one year anniversary .

Friendship is like something unexpectedly expected
Our last days together
was the start from the end of the chapter
we laughed, laughed and laughed
cause that's what made us closer, we made each other smile and fart to death

And now, time flies
a year felt like yesterday
And now, time flies
The car arrived
The thing to do next was hug, kiss kiss and say bye bye
at that point on

My eyes burst into tears
like salt water leaking out of the aquarium.
My nose turned red like a stop lamp for a car.
My lips had hick-ups like chocking broken down car
My head started to have a flash back in a click
when we were together,
but I realized that this is my first lost from a bag of future tears.
nothing is everlasting in this world

But it's okay :)

God has plans for you and me ..

I'll always remember you .. (inside my head audience : "aaaaaaaawwww")

Red Cherry Balloons

2010-09-04T09:37:00.000-07:00

If people say "love is in the air"
Now, it means I'm not breathing

Cherry's are so lucky
cause they have some one beside them all the time
be my cherry ?

It takes to hands to hold hands
holding and folding are two different things

I'm lost like a balloon floating in mid air

Love is trippy like a rock
Love is comfy like shoes
Love can be two different things
like me and you

You need two pair of glass to read
You need two eyes to see
You need two legs to walk
You need one person to love

How can you pee in those?

2010-09-03T10:02:00.000-07:00

I got it from this blog

Death by Fish

2010-09-03T04:15:00.000-07:00

Yesterday night, I couldn't really sleep, so slept .

(wooow pinkan, that's AMAZING !)

well well welli well, hhmmm today ? I'm bored, when I know I have a ton of things to do. And I decided , ooh why don't I blog ? hahha well that's what I've decided

Yesterday I went to sic, and had a blast hehehe I watched Julie & Julia today, I thought "HHmm, aku masak ajaa .." sooo I farted my way to the kitchen after drinking a glass of milk (of course), and made sooomee SHRIMP ! hahha sooo, I filled some, cleaned some, seasoned some, and cooked some and .. actually burning my fingers ..... hahha just kidding, I just melted my face off o.o hahha agaaiin, pinkan the joker wannabe has made you shocked--not haha

Yup you can guess it, My fish died, today, this morning, about 3 hours ago, I was like "fishy ??" and it was already floating like it was dancing it's way to fish heaven (i think) sooo I flushed it in the toilet so it can swim in peace :D

The Belah Tengah Revolution

2010-08-30T07:39:00.000-07:00

hahahha, well the story is like this

yesterday I woke up with a straight face, Chinese eyes and fish lips with a small valley up my hair .. yes, ~~I guessed it~~ you guessed it .. BELAH TENGAH .. when I was narsising in the mirror i thought "Wooww .. not bad pinkan" and decided to go to school like this. ;) I know I'm stupid for doing it, but, who cares ? do you have to look good all the time? ~~ummmm ?? all the time (d'oh?!)~~ And I don't think it's a wrong thing, to do something new in the school, especially when you're a in an ~~all-hair-type-lover~~ a belah tengah hater area

-_________________-"

after having comments

"hhmmm ? kamu gmn pink? kok kayak gitu??"

"uuuhh ? lo mimpi apa kemaren pink?"

"hhmmm .. okay ??"

"wooow pinkaan .. you look "goood" "

I was like : thanks ??

and from all I ANSWERED (proudly)

IT'S THE NEW BELAH TENGAH REVOLUTION !!!

and after I went home .. I decided to give the revolution a break :p

xoxo

Pinkan

Sunsilk damage treatment

2010-08-28T09:49:00.000-07:00

Sekarang .. aku udah masuk sekolah sekitar 2 minggu yang lalu .. SILN story telling jadi beban gw bulan ini.

Mana miss amal (guru story telling) keseleo (kakinya) .. dan gak tau kenapa aku malah sedikiiiiiiit .. happy .. karenaaaaa ... belum siap tuk nampil juga siih :D

Sebagai anak UN smp .. hhmm gmn yaa .. ini UN aku yang pertama siiih jadi ~~berat banget~~ santai aja siih .. masih semester 1 ini .. try out aja belum nongol .. gw cuma bsa kentut ama makan doang ..

Love life akuu .. well .. no one.. at this time .. biasanya sekarang aku lagi ngengayal" dia .. tapii not anymore .. aku nyadar di hidup ini ada yang JAUUUUUH lebih penting lagi daripada cuman sekedar cowok doang yang cuma bilaang "apa kabar sayang?" ato gak "kamu udah makan?" well that's what i've heard .. most of the times. Aku belum pernah pacaran .. aku masih 13 tahun for crying out loud. Aku masih mau nikmatin gmn kejamnya dunia ini di waktu teenager.. sebad .. gw adalah noob, jadi aku masih bakal ngerasainlaah .. gmn hidup itu akan mulai dan berhenti.

kamu pernah gak ngerasain temen yang gak lama banget siih kenal, cuma se tahun .. akan pergi begitu aja .. tanpa sebab ato alasan .. tertinggal... walau kamu tahu itu lebih baik untuk kamu dan temen kamu itu?

well itu situasi yang gw harus makan sekarang .. temen sekelas gw .. temen cewe gww .. doaang ! di kelas ..akan pulang ke indo ... namanya arum .. dia itu lucu dan suka makan hahahaha kayak gw .. itu yang bikin kita sama. Dia suka tekno kayak gw. Kita juga suka owl city .:)

dia temen baik .. tapi aku gak bakal nangis karena gw tahu ini untuk yang terbaik yang Tuhan suka catat di buku hidup gw .. siapa tahu nanti arum dapet temen" yang jauh lebih bail, cantik, atau cakep, atau mungkin lebih pinterdaripada gw .. itu yang terbaik daan itu yang akan terjadi .. :)

jadii ... itu deeh updates bulan ini .. mungkin nanti aku ada kejutann untuk klian .. well untuk seseorang special siihh ..

xoxo

Pinkan

INDONESIA MERDEKA !

2010-08-17T13:05:00.000-07:00

Well, well well, today is the 65th independence day of INDONESIA ! my country ! my lovely country ...
to be honest, I spent 20 minutes to write this. I just have so many things to tell, the only thing I can really let out, is that, even though your has some cracks and maybe some little dirt.. it's your country and you have be great-full for our heroes that has been in a war or our freedom. And today is the day we, as next Indonesian generation, to continue what our fathers want us to be ... be the best out of us, for INDONESIA IS OUR COUNTRY !

INDONESIA

MERDEKA !

(sorry, I didn't have time to edit some pics)

PS. aku masuk paskibra tahun ini, after a month of practicing, akhirnya selesai :)

here are some pics.

hehe, well i got this form mba egi :D
kita semua foto seperti biasa, dan in laah muka" kita yang ancur-ancur karena stress hahha gak siih maksa banget deeeh
tapi muka" kita yang super bodoh hahahaha

here we all are, all 23 of us :p
a HAPPY SIC FAMILY hahahha
that's funny .. (not)

Es Pandan

2010-08-14T01:56:00.000-07:00

On a easy saturday morning, I prefer a drink that will slap your morning yawn something like ...
ES PANDAAAAN !
I LOVE ES PANDAN
I actually made a status called "DEATH .... BY ES PANDAN" I JUST L.O.V.E love es pandan :3
best drink ever, ever and ever (sok terpesona)
hahhaa well that's it, haha nothing to say, but something to drink :) see ya latter readers :)

Pink Shades

2010-08-12T12:54:00.000-07:00

Every time you shine
I'll grab my pink shades
cross my fingers
wish you were mine

You can melt my frozen tear
And I can assure you
It's better than a beard

You keep me out of water
But, I am a fish
A worthless gold fish

Inside my underwater castle
Where I can't pain with pastel
I'll wait for the perfect shark to get me
from the top of the tower
where I don't take a shower
Where I'll be eating ice cream
ben and jerry's fish food ice cream

But I am just a fish
You can't see me crying inside my little pool
You think I am a disposable living thing that
belongs to the toilets drain

but, it's what I think, which makes me believe
living in a dream, separates reality
with the anatomy

The Asteroids Galaxy tour

2010-08-06T12:33:00.000-07:00

hellow, hellow cairo, ibu kota mesir kunoooo
life in cairo,

Eating Baskin Robbins
isn't something on the way to the bins
heavenly ice cream
is a life long dream
enjoying the taste of life
is a laugh

Playing the acoustic guitar
at 4 o'clock
looking at the sun fall in a cave
there's a reason to be brave
looking at the clouds gathering slowly
is like peanut butter and jelly

from the living room window
It's stars from note do
The sky will ware off it's blue
and something beautiful is for you
First its purple, red, orange and yellow
Just like my pillow

it is soft and cushions the fall
I'll run to the mall
To get some new mango shoes
and say Tschüs

Fitnah lebih parah daripada Fitness (jobless)

2010-08-06T11:08:00.000-07:00

Pak Habiebie, You were always our Funny, Wise teacher

2010-08-04T12:58:00.000-07:00

Flowers wont live forever

Early in the morning

Shocked from

News went through people phones

We look back at our last chapters

It may bring some giggles and sorrow tears

Volley ball games, Silent classes, or even awkward laughs

Our last page of our life

Can end any day

Unpredictable

Un-understanding

Every step up

Brings a curious thought in the mind

Every step up

Brings a tear to the eye

The first sound are screaming

Up there

A shoulder to cry is a pillow to the fall

It's a tear in the eyes

To see someone on the bed

Hopeless

Lifeless

We look back at our last chapters

together

It may bring some giggles and sorrow tears

Volley ball games, Silent classes, or even awkward laughs

To see little children cry

Is a tear for tissues

To a tear

how a split second can change our future

Water might not always flow

Flowers might not live forever

Birds might not sing every morning

Autumn lives and leaves fall in sadness on a summer morning

A hero can not fight the lifetime line

A hero can not fight fate

Only God will know when, what, and why

We go

We can only pray

Pray and pray

and forgive his wrongs, smile for his rights

Abstract Baby !

2010-07-31T10:00:00.000-07:00

This is my fav style :3

Sometimes, i just wonder, how people get all the right pieces at the right time, her name is diana rikasari, she's soo cool, I always click "new tab" and write her website on that, place where you put.... links? well i am not really good at ICT, but, She's just so good at mix and matchin. My style is inspired by her, she just knows if it's in or not. Sometimes i wonder where she buys them? ZARA? MANGO? H&M? Pull and Bear?
and those places i just typed are my favorite places to waste money on, hehehe :) well, i just like her style, abstract but simple, simple but STYLISH ! she's my inspiration of my everyday look ;) so thanks diana ;)
(i know you think that i am a diana-riaksari-lunatic , but i just like her style and she's has the perfect body (unlike me))

Decode

2010-07-28T13:26:00.000-07:00

Gravity wont forget to pull you down
Birds wont forget to flap their wings
Ants wont forget to be in a military line
But some things are forgotten

Not like ketchup on french-fries
Not like a stupid brain on a trigonometry class
Something else

I am an open anklet
I am a popped birthday balloon

They say that birds will fly up in the sky forever
They say that worms will crawl beneath the library books
They say that friendship will go to the ends of the earth till they'll find the things you need

Open your brain with a key
The birds wont fly if their wings are broken
Worms wont read if they don't have glasses
Friends will forget something on day
I am so sure of it, I can't careless

Lies are ashes
melted candles
smelly fishes

Lies are cutting chain saws of a beautiful, delicate string between a bond
Lies oh lies
such desperate pages

Simple Things

2010-07-28T13:09:00.000-07:00

Hidup gw sekarang makin tua makin dramatis. Gak tau kenapaa? gw pasti ada aja sesuatu yang bener" bikin gw emosian. Gw bukan tipe orang yang nge-sok-emo, gituu, tapi .. gw bakal diem, didalem. Bete banget akhir" ini. Love life gw, lagi naik, tapi ada sesuatu yang bikin gw kesel dan pengen gw lepas, tapi gw tau tali ini sangat lembut dan halus.

Teman mungkin bukan teman.
Seseorang yang kamu sempet suka, udah somewhere over the rainbow laah

Simple aja sih sebenernya, hidup itu hidup, no matter camel crappy it goes, it's called life
You may have to go through thick walls, with invisible friends, illusinated dreams, or maybe faded feelings. Life is life, and God is the only one you can hang on.

Before the I grew taller

2010-07-27T09:15:00.000-07:00

and

Une Deux Troi ! Bang Bang Bang!

2010-07-27T07:28:00.000-07:00

I am liking ... this soong :)

This kid is also cute :3

13

2010-07-24T11:54:00.000-07:00

kemren ulang taunku yang ke 13 .. yang aku bakal inget adalah pelajaran dalam hidup gw yang akan datang, adalah bumbu" dalam hidup gw yang harus aku betulkan. Semua teenager harus melewatkan masa" kayak ginii, well
ALL i wanna say is, my prayer for me for my new life

Dear Jesus Christ,
I wanna thank you for all the years that have passed.
I wanna thank you for all the mistakes that I have done, for those are the times that well remind me to be perfect.
I wanna thank you for my family that has supported me since my first baby cry and till this second.
You have guarded me through passing years.
You have giving me the way to every problem.
For you are the way, the truth and the light.
You are the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.
Thank you our Father in Heaven and Earth, You have shed your blood for this stupid human being, and you still give and give, you are honest, and we are the ones who do not deserve it.
Thank you,
Bless my new year as a teenager
thank you
Amen.

So many things, to tell

2010-07-22T11:59:00.000-07:00

Wippi di woopppooh :D wellie wellie, a few days ago i went to this really cool, and nice, well it wasn't really nice, but .... i went to a pet store, a DOG STORE. And if you're not a dog lover, feel free to close this tab -.-

JUST KIDDING

soo, I saw this really cutie cutie PUPPY :3 aaaww it was soo cute looks like this one

cute right?

and I am a mad HATTER :)

soo here are some pictures of me, wearing my totally random hats :)

I bought this in Nigeria, when me, my mum and my sister went to this really expensive super market -.-"

but it's cool, i call it

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ..... HAT :)

This is my ... uumm Barret? well it's something like that :)

it's like hippie (FLOWER POWER)

haha, well I bought this in my home town

H & M :)

Ho & Me

okay ... ?

and .. uumm i guess this is a hat -.-"

And this is my fav stuffed animal

it's a COW ! this name is Cowi, i got this cow from a friend, kak dea, and she gave this to me, when I was still 7, cause I was sick and I was in the hospital, she gave this to me. She asked me "Pinkan, soo what are you going to name it?" dengan spontan "hmmm. cowi" cause i thought people would name their stuffed animal with and i at the end, example:

if it was a dog, it's doggI and if it was a fish, they'll call it fishI

soo mine is cowI

hehe :D and he's a really nice pillow cause he's fat with .. uum feathers?

hihi,aku mirip sapi kesayanganku :)

My hair got curly-er :)

Oh yeah, this summer, I had to study for SILN

hungry?

yeah that's what i thought too, when i was reading about it at "Sistem Pencernaan"

RANDOM PINKAN ZONE !

Thanks for reading Acca-fellas :)

PS. my camera is working again, WOHOOO, "PRAISE THE LORD !"

soo that's why I have so many pictures this time ;)

Abstract is what it's all ABOUT

2010-07-19T14:37:00.000-07:00

*speechless*

Balik kanaaaaaaaaaaaan... Geraaaak !

2010-07-19T14:23:00.000-07:00

hehhee, well well well
hari ini aku jalanin hari ketiga latihan PASKIBRAAA ! yeyy
aku bener" seneng banget ikut, paskib, dan aku cape di waktu yang sama hehe well
aku pengen banget ikut... tahun ini :3
I'm just sooo proud of my country.
It's true... what pak Isrona said, you should be proud you can see your graceful and powerful Red and White can move freely up there:D
our heroes has killed their own blood for this country !
(hasiik, kayak mau pidato aja gww) anywayyy
aku bener" bangga dan kalo liat" aku yakin ini bakal jadi highlight pas di sic, karena ini bakal jadi kenanyan yang aku bakal inget kalo aku dah pergi dari tanah MESIR iniiiiii
soo freakin cool :D

Hayley Rocks !

2010-07-17T12:44:00.000-07:00

she has an amazing voice, and she has this really cool style that I totally love :D